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Today, school was fine.

After school, Lia and Nisa went to Queensway. I actually wanted to go along but to alter my uniform. But I didn't bring them so then I thought of something. I asked Tini to follow me to Pasir Ris and let me get my uniform and then we'll all go and meet Lia and Nisa. Tired man, live so far away.

Reached there and while waiting for my uniform to finish altering, we walked around and looked into shops. Nisa showed me this top that she thought was nice. And ya! It's nice. So I bought it. And along the way window shopping, I saw 2 cute guys who are worth talking about. One was this Eurasian/Italian/Arab/Caucasian looking guy. He was sooo cute! Argh! I went so ga-ga whenever I saw him. I think one time he kinda noticed me. So embarrassing. Then another one is this Malay guy. He was wearing a cap. He's sooo cute!! Told Nisa. Then we were collecting my uniform when we saw him at this shop. Nisa called my name and looked into the shop. I thought it was some nice clothes she saw or what. But then I caught his eyes and my heart kinda stopped a while. He saw me and I turned away just in time to see another guy standing in front of me. Luckily didn't bump into him. I only saw his chest by the way. Ya so anyway, I got excited again la. They guy was so cute.

Then went home, tried on my altered uniform and it's so much better. And I can't wait to wear my new top to school!
In my own world,
9:22 PM

Ok. Why is this blogger website in chinese? Err.. Whatever.

I've been pissed these few days. Monday because of the public transport. Tuesday and Wednesday something happened that made me pissed. But I can't remember what. Today I was angry at this Civil Defence guys. What happened was...

I decided to take cab this morning to school. And I was stuck in 2 jams. The first one was when we were entering the PIE. It was SO slow. The traffic lights kept changing from green and then to red. But my cab was still at the same freaking spot. I was like what the hell. And I became worried cuz I was afraid I didn't have enough money. Then we finally reached PIE and I saw flashing lights, like the ambulance kind of lights. So I thought there was an accident or something. I was like "How dare you get into an accident?!" Call me heartless but whatever. At that time, I was already angry la. But then right, there wasn't an ambulance and there wasn't an accident. It was the Civil Defence truck. It broke down! I was like what the f**k! Only one vehicle and the jam is like this terrible?? The CD guys were a few metres away from the vehicle to warn others. They were doing it, smiling. I got so pissed la! They got me into a jam and they're smiling?? I was stuck in that jam for half an hour! The cab meter seem to go up every second! One of the CD guys looked into my cab and saw me. I gave him a black look. I mean omg. It was only 1 vehicle and it's not like as if it's in the middle of the road la. Then when nearing to Clementi, the traffic was slow again because of a vehicle breakdown. I was like Oh come on! Don't do this to me, man! So what can I do but just sit back and worry. Reached school a little bit late and I was $23 poorer. Argh!

Anyway, my course have these overseas trips. There's like going to Nursing College, Adventure Camp in Taman Negara, to Kunming in China, Indonesia, bla bla bla. But the thing that caught my pretty eyes was that in March to April or April to May, they have overseas trips to Australia, USA and, get this, UK!!!! I got sooo excited when I saw it. But they're only going to bring the top 10% of the course to go. I SO want to go to the UK. It's my wish since like.. FOREVER. I want to go! So I have to study damn hard to score all A's in my exams. I don't want anything to distract me, negatively. If it helps in my studies, distract me all you want. I wanna go, I wanna go, I WANNA GO!!

Got back some of my modules' Common Tests/Practical/CA/Assignments results:
Clinical Attachment(CA) - B+
Cell & Molecular Biology - B
Nursing Skills Lab - B (i think)
Fundamentals of Nursing - B (improved a lot)
Pharmacology - B
Creative & Innovative Thinking Skills - B
Singapore & World Issues - B+
Nursing Research - B

24/01/06








25/01/06





In my own world,
8:23 PM

My mood turned black after school in the train. First of all, there weren't any seats and I had to stand. My legs hurt so much I thought it can't be saved. Then a few stops later I got a seat. And my butt hurt. The journey was so long. I don't think I can get used to the 1 hour journey of sitting on plastic seats on the train. I hate the journey.

Then got to my stop and waited for a bus. I swear I waited almost an hour for the fucking bus. Bus number 6. I stood. My legs were just about to collapse already la. Then this man came and asked if we're waiting for bus number 6. I was like what the hell. Of course we are. Can't you see this queue is for bus number 6? Walao. And he told us the bus ain't coming anytime soon cuz it broke down. I was like, what the HELL! What? There's only one number 6 bus? So I had to change to another queue, bus number 3. I didn't want to take this bus cuz I have to walk to my block and with my legs already so painful, I can't even think of walking. And the bus came so late. I was already so angry ok. All the while in my head I was thinking of sueing the bus company.

Then had to walk to my block. My bag was so heavy la. Oh my God!! I was so pissed I could feel the frown on my face. Then I reached home I almost wanted to scream at my sisters ok.

Bloody hell. I want a car right now! Or somebody to be my chauffeur every single day. Stupid public transport. I hate all public tranport except for the taxi. Sometimes I hate taxi also cuz sometimes when you want a taxi, none came. If you're not waiting for a taxi, so many pass by. What the hell.
In my own world,
8:33 PM

Today was the last day of CA. Don't know if I'm happy about it. I like the ward. I prefer this ward to my previous ward cuz this ward is surgical ward and ANYONE can be admitted here, including teenage guys. It's a male ward by the way. Yup I like this ward. I don't mind being posted to this ward again. I just don't want to work with a few of the NP students. hahah...

Today was a little bit nerve wrecking. I think my pulse was like a little bit too high. Ok first, there was this malay teenage guy newly admitted to the ward and in my team some more. And a LOT of his male friends came to visit. I was so nervous when want to even do the parameters on him. Everyone's eyes seems to be on me. So paiseh like crazy. I could feel my face heating up and I thought I might be having a fever or something. Trembling so much I was afraid I'd mess up. And when I wasn't doing any procedures on him, I could see them look at me from the corners of my eyes. I totally ignored them lor. Never looked into any of their eyes. So shy.. Hahaha.. Then another time was when this doctor asked me to get something for him, a plaster and a blue stopper. When I got into the utility room to get the stuff, I was like "Blue stopper?? What blue stopper? I only know yellow stopper!" I was a little bit freaked out. But luckily I got the right thing. I was like "PHEW!" I mean doctor leh. It's like a fucking MUST to do the right thing. So I was damn happy when the doctor said thank you.

Oh and yesterday, I got to do admission on this Year 1 TPJC guy. Then had to help him change to the hospital clothes. Omg. His skin is SOO nice. Damn smooth and tanned and creamy. Hahaha. He's ok looking but his friend that came with him was so cute! Not handsome. Cute.

Anyway, I improved on this posting compared to the previous one. From C to B+. So I'm freaking happy. My care plan also from C to B+. When I saw it I was damn happy lor. When I got out of the conference room with Ms Lam I was like "Yes! Yes!"

Hmmm.. thinking about it, I hope we'll be posted to ward 47 again. And I like working afternoon shift. Like it a lot. I'm really very satisfied with this CA.
In my own world,
10:32 PM

Updating while watching America's Next Top Model. I do not like Lisa. I like Jayla. I find her totally gorgeous but at the same time cute. I love her eyes and her hair. Too bad she didn't win this ANTM.

Afternoon shift is alright. First day of afternoon shift was the best. But after that, the time kinda drags a little and then somehow it got busy and unlike the first day, we didn't have about 45 to 60 minutes slacking and talking time. I hate 2 hourly turning and hourly parameter. Sometimes I'll be doing something else and the time for turning and para just passes. I wonder if I'd prefer to be a nurse for only one or two or three patients, not like this, one nurse to don't know how many patients.

Today, had some sort of an individual conference with Ms Lam. She was going to ask us stuff about the skills. I was pretty nervous about it but it actually went well. I love every second she was signing on my book under competent. The feeling of accomplishment is tremendous. Tomorrow, there's going to be some kind of meeting with the non-clinical lecturers. I hope it's not like last time where we were supposed to tell some interesting stuff that happens in the ward. Because I don't find anything super-ly interesting that I can talk about. Plus it's going to be a freaking small group (15 students + 4 lecturers?) and everyone's attention would be on me. How nerve-wrecking is that?

I want to bitch about someone but it's just so mean. Thinking twice about it, forget it. I'm not bitching.

So anyway, I found this guy very cute. See him often in the ward. When others found out about it they gave me the look. Like "You think HE'S cute??" And then one day they come up to me and go "Nad, he IS cute!" or "Omg, he's so cute! I love his....bla bla bla". Are you kidding me?! Go and get someone else la.

The weather is so damn humid. I hate it.

Girls, don't blame the photographer. Blame your parents for bad DNA.
In my own world,
10:42 PM

I shopped again today! Alone!

See. I went to Nisa's house to do a project with Tini and Lya. But in the end we didn't do anything. And all of them were talking about guys. Oh. My. God. They know so many guys man. And every guy seems to like them. Super jealous. So I became quiet and everything.

Left around 7.30pm. Since none of them stay in the East, I had to travel home alone. Took the train and stopped at Tampines Mall and bought two pairs of stockings for my CA. 7 bucks. Cheap right. Then took train again and went to Pasir Ris. Visited This Fashion and saw this coat that I totally fell in love with. $25. Browse some more and picked out a long sleeved jacket. Super nice. Only $14. I love This Fashion. Nice clothes and cheap some more.

After shopping, I felt SOOO good! It so made my day after a whole afternoon of having feelings that I so hate to feel. Plus I was wearing my new black heels I bought the other day. I felt so fine. Plus I don't have to wake up early tomorrow. Yay! But will end my shift at 9pm. So hopefully I won't miss my show, Dia.
In my own world,
11:16 PM

1 more week of CA and it's going to be all afternoon shift. So no Ms Lam. At least I won't see her for the whole day. Guess I'll have to ask the staff nurses to sign my book. Hopefully everything under competent. *evil laughter*

And I'm bored.

Now I feel neutral about going to school. Looking forward, but not looking forward at the same time. I hate projects.

He's tall.
He's gorgeous.
He's funny.
He's passionate.
He's loyal.
He's trustworthy.
He's charming.
He's smart.
He's rich.

How I want him.
In my own world,
6:10 PM

One week and a day of clinical attachment (CA) has passed. 1 week and 3 more days to go. So far it's alright. Somehow, I enjoyed this CA more than the previous posting. Now I know how to do a lot more skills more skillfully. Hahah. I've achieved competence in some skills. Like bed-making. Hahahah. Got some others la. Oh and I didn't think inserting dulcolax was so easy. Just slide it in. Hahah. And I love doing endogastric tube feeding. So simple. I only did it once but am looking for more opportunity to to more so as to achieve the competent level. It's hard work ok. Must reach competent level in so many skills.

There's even a few good-looking patients in the ward. So not bad la. Except that I prefer the ITE Nursing Students in my previous ward. I'm actually enjoying this posting. The Nurse Managers aren't as fierce and strict as the previous ones. Oh I hate doing oral toilette. Especially if the patient is super not cooperative. They'll just close their mouth and clench their teeth. The only times we can get to clean the tongue is when they yawn. Frustrating like crazy.

Anyway, I think now I'm addicted to the tv shows Grey's Anatomy, Dia and America's Next Top Model. Am trying my best not to miss any episodes.

I need to buy more clothes. I saw this nice dress in This Fashion. I think it's cheap. Most clothes there are cheap. So hopefully the dress is still there and it's cheap.

Next week I'll be in the afternoon shift. Not sure if I'm looking forward to it. I prefer morning. Oh well, I can get through this.

Oh man! I still haven't started on any darn school projects. I want to take the initiative to remind my group members.. I HAD taken the initiative. They didn't reply. WHATEVER MAN! Make me so mad just thinking about it. GOD!!
In my own world,
7:47 PM