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So Long and Goodnight.

One word to describe how's my days so far. Tired! My muscles are super aching and i think i lost weight. How much more can i lose? No more!

One patient of mine passed away last evening. I miss his "Don't want la!" Everybody likes him and finds him cute. So sad. He's old but his English is quite good.

I've a headache and i'm hungry but it's going to be a chore to walk and get food. I've never been this tired.
In my own world,
4:17 PM

Woot! I like my ward!

Ok on the first day of attachment, everything was mainly orientation. Since I slept at 1+ in the morning the night before, I was almost out of energy trying to keep myself awake. So the orientation, yada, yada, yada. I saw the mortuary but didn't get to see the dead people. They were wrapped up in a white sheet already. So cool.

Finally, we got to our wards. I'm with Mel. When we first stepped into the ward, the ITE students talked to us. They were super friendly and very nice people. There was Kiwi who talked to us first. He's a very active, funny, friendly guy. Then there were Danyl, Helelina, Ayu, and two others whose names didn't pass my sensory memory. But I'll find out. They were all nice. Answered all my questions and asked about us too. Anyway yesterday, we didn't really do anything.

But today, came at 6.30 in the morning. Super early right, I know. I guess Danyl was in the same bus as me cuz I saw him walking in to the hospital too. So I greeted him, talked to him and went up with him to sign in. The whole day I was with him. He's like my very young mentor. He's super nice and friendly and answers all my questions and shows me how to do stuff for the patients like changing the diapers, bathing, SMU, making the bed and a lot of other stuff. It was fun doing with him. I like him. He's a nice companion. Ooh and he can speak and understand Malay quite well. Very well for a chinese. He's interesting. It's great to be in his team. The rest of the staff was nice too. I like Richard, the clinical assistant, i think. He's cool and funny.

What a day! I love it! So sad that Danyl will be in the afternoon shift after tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get all my skills signed under 'Competent'.
In my own world,
7:23 PM

Blast you.

Life is full of surprises. Some surprises just suck. To the very core. I'm so upset that I want to say all the innovative, inventive, cursing words; But I shall not. Why is everything made so difficult for me?

Piss off.
In my own world,
4:31 PM

Scram!

Hillary Duff and Joel Madden are an item?! Tell me it's not true! What?! No!

I'm not listening to any of Duff's music anymore. Man! Why must it be Joel? Choose Benji la!

What is my problem man. It's not like I can have him. Ugh! God I'm so disgusted at myself.

Some people just have all the luck and love and fame and money. What-EVER!



Kahlen!



Naima!
In my own world,
10:56 PM

Have I told you how cute children are?

Exams are not around the corner. It has driven up straight to my doorstep. Yup. It's here. I think I'm screwed. I really do.

Well, haven't been feeling good these few days. I'm so moody, I realize it myself. Am I PMS-ing? And my brain just can't stop working. Every single second I'm thinking of something. I just don't want to think while I'm alone and staring at nothing in particular. I've come to hate having free time when I have nothing to do. Thoughts: dreadful, hurtful, embarrassing, envious thoughts would all conjure up in my head which then bring forth feelings of hatred, hurt, shame and jealousy. It could sometimes get so bad that my vision blurred from the tears that sprang to my eyes. I hate it. I hate it so much.

What can I say, or anyone say? This is life, that's just the way it is. I don't know how long I'd have to put up with all this but I know I can't run away from it. I just can't. Even if I do, I don't know how.
In my own world,
8:25 PM

Cemetery

Went to the cemetery with most of my family and my mom's side. It was pretty interesting. Saw little graves too. They're in heaven right now. Sometimes I wished I died young.

Then we went to eat at Mary Brown. The food was ok. The place was nice. They have swings in place of normal chairs. Interesting.

In all, I had fun. Laughed a lot with my cousins and aunts. My little cousin is so cute. And really naughty. But cute.

I can't wait to have children of my own. I think it's weird that I should be thinking about children at this time. I'm still young and studying. Of course I'll wait till the right time, or when Prince Charming arrives and sweep me off my feet. Till then, I'll have to study and work.

Children are so cute. They are so cute.
In my own world,
9:57 PM

Fun, Exam, Exam, Exam, Fun!


MONDAY
Went to school for only an hour for tutorial. Passed Zam his birthday gift. Tini, Nisa and I decided to study in the library but didn't have mood so we went to Suntec instead. Nisa then brought us to find what we want for our overdued birthday presents. So sweet of her. I got a pair of pretty slippers and a bar of nice smelling soap. I saw a cute caucasian guy. I think his whole family knows I find him cute. Tini went off earlier and Nisa and I went to Peace Centre to play pool. Yay!


TUESDAY
Nursing Skills exam. In nurse uniform. I might not have done that well, even though I think I could pass. My assessor is super strict la. I became a model on that day too. Michael ran his fingers down my arm. Hahaha..


WEDNESDAY
Nursing Skills Theory Exam. I hope I pass.


THURSDAY
AAP Practical Exam. I might be able to get 90% of the answer. I hope.


FRIDAY
Went out with Nisa and her workmates, Yan and Khai. Yan was super tall. I don't think my head even reached his shoulders. He's a nice personality. Khai is cute and rather quiet. Anyway, we went to play bowling first. Yan threw the ball so hard I thought it might make a hole in the floor. He won for the two games we played. I came in second. Then we went to Bugis. Khai bought a shirt. Then we took neoprints which turned out awful. After that we went to Peace Centre and played pool. Fir, another of Nisa's friend joined us there. Pool was fun! Especially playing against Yan. He's forever losing against me. Hahah. Then decided to go off first ard 8.30pm. Yan walked me out to the taxi stand which was just outside the Centre so I told him if he wants to go in first, he can but he just shook his head in this superly cute way that I so wanted to pinch his cheeks. But I just laughed. He's so sweet know. Khai was sweet too! In all this sweetness I'd forgotten that my wallet wasn't with me until the cab reached to my place. I had enough cash to pay for the cab luckily. Still when I realized I'd left my wallet behind (in Nisa's bag), I kinda panicked and the first thing that came to my mind was: Oh F**K! So I messaged Nisa and she was like: Oh S**T! And then I was wondering how could I travel without my EZLink but amazingly, I didn't put my EZLink in my wallet. I was like: Thank God! I still can travel.


Bagaikan siang tiada mentari
Bagai malam tiada cahaya purnama
Tanpamu tiada erti hidup berdua
Ke akhir masa kau ku cinta


Bagaikan syurga tanpa bidadari
Kau ibarat hembusan nafas terakhir
Pulanglah sayang usah kau berpaling
Di sini ku pasrah menanti
-Hazami, Sonata Musim Salju.
In my own world,
1:05 PM