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I've come upon the BIGGEST disappointment I've ever had in school. It's SO disappointing that I feel like I am not meant to live. HAHAH. What kind of stupid talk is this? But seriously, the disappointment is THAT big. ARGH! I wish I can rewind time.

I might have given up someone who could have actually really like me. What kind of stupid action is this?

I want to have period every day. Hahah. Cuz that's the time I feel confident of myself. And I feel more out-going and more brave.

Anyway, football now.

Labels: disappointment

In my own world,
7:35 PM

WOOO HOOO!!!

Singapore won the Asean Football Championship Singapore VS Malaysia!!!!

The first half nobody scored. 2nd half Malaysia goal-ed first by Eddy. Lionel Louis, Singapore goalkeeper was..erm.. a bit.. clumsy. It wasn't a good catch or block. Then later, Singapore goal-ed by Ridhuan. I was like super relieved la. Then don't know when Precious from Singapore tried a shot. It was a super shot sia!! Seriously. It was a long hard powerful shot which went straight to the corner of the net. But Malaysian goalkeeper was able to block it. Ok I'm not a frequent football "watcher", so please don't mind my soccer language.

After 90minutes, it was still 1-1. Added 4 minutes, 1-1. Then they had extra time 45 minutes. Still no more goals. So they had the mandatory penalty shoot out. Singapore got every kick in. Malaysia, the last kick was caught by Singapore's goalkeeper!! And Singapore WON!!!! I was screaming and shrieking and clapping like crazy.

WOO HOO!!!

Labels: football

In my own world,
11:01 PM

Not much has made my week good. I just wish things were the way it was back then.

Two things at least made me smile and satisfied. My presentations were excellent. Both lecturers of the modules loved our presentations. And I did well presenting. I've improved. Cool. Somehow I just don't feel all that nervous standing up in class speaking anymore.

Today I went into shock. Maybe I probably still am. I had to pay $26 for my cab fare. I can just imagine my money fly out of my wallet. I feel absolutely poor.

Have I told you how much I love books? Well, I do. It's the only way I could escape from this world.
In my own world,
12:16 PM

I'm watching football right now. Singapore vs Malaysia. Doesn't look too good for Singapore. DAMN! Baju je lawa.

Anyway, just now when I was waiting for my bus home, at the interchange, I thought I saw Danyl's bestie, Danish or something. He's SOO CUTE. He's really good looking. He's the most good looking guy I've laid eyes on since.. so long. Really. He's really good looking.

And I'm tired and stressed and moody.

AARRGGHH!!!! Singapore finally scored a goal at 73rd minute of the game by Alam Shah! Yes!

I tend to get excited watching sports match or competition, whatever. I'll be screaming here and there and shouting something or other. Hahah. Damn exciting.
In my own world,
9:24 PM

I hate it when someone can't think for herself. I hate it when someone's too dependent on others. I hate it when someone doesn't like one friend, who is just not likable just for that day, she jumps to other friends. What kind of a friend is that? Obviously, she's not a real friend. She just wants to be with someone. Or if not, just follow the rest. Can't think for herself and dependent on others. Disgusting.

And I hate it when someone is not reliable when she should be. I hate it when some people are just so damn helpless (or is it hopeless?). When asked something, all they go is "I don't know" or "Ermm.. I'm not sure" or "I didn't pay attention ah. sorry." or just give some lame excuses. And they don't even bother to help find out.

I know I'm having PMS today. Cuz I've been eating a lot and feeling hungry all the time. And also because I actually felt down. And my mood kind of swung here and there. PMS is scary.

I'm going to fail my Mandarin assessment tomorrow. I don't know how to speak all those words.
In my own world,
7:03 PM

I love my phone, ah! Oh, I love my phone, ah! Oh, I love my, oh I love my, oh I love my phone! Ah, ah, aahh!

Hahah. What the hell.

I love school too. I love MY school. I love Ngee Ann Polytechnic, which is MY school. Hahah. Come to our open house! Come to see us Health Science students!

And I love my friends to the core. I mean to their bone marrows. Hahah.

I'm acting stupid. But nevermind.

Anyway, I was blog-hopping and ended up at her blog. She irritates me. Seriously. I can't stand how she types words and not even say it's from a song. She makes it look like she's so fluent in her English and she's so poetic and deep-thinking. I mean isn't it like copyright or something?

I think my lecturers have drilled us so much on referencing that I'm complaining about people not saying where they get all those words from. Annoys me.

And I don't like how people stares at people. I especially don't like it when people stares at me. I am just walking, for God's sake. And so far, no one has complained about how I walk, whether it's funny or weird, so I don't think that could be a reason why people stares at me. And I'm sure there's nothing wrong with my face or outfit either. So why the stare? Sometimes when I'm in a bad mood and I noticed someone staring at me, I'd get quite mad. I won't yell at the person or anything. I'd just give a black face and "blink". Not the 1 second blink. More like the close the eyes for 2-3 seconds and open the eyes again kind of blink. I don't know what that's called in English. Hahah. If you're staring because I'm pretty or am wearing something nice, come up to me and tell me. Don't worry, I don't bite. Who doesn't like being complimented, right?

Well, that's one thing I should improve on myself. Don't give a damn what they're thinking or doing. If I know that I'm not doing something weird or ugly or whatever, so why bother, right?

Hahah. Ta-ta!
In my own world,
6:14 PM

I've been busy like an ant or a bee. Every single day there are always something to do, to finish up.

There are tons of school project and assignments, so much to study and so many other school commitments. Then there's the going home late because of school and long journey home, it leaves me so little time to study and do my work. Which then leads to sleeping late. It took a toll on me for the past 3 days, when I got sick (cold), sneezing every other minute and using up packets of tissue paper. I dread waking up. I felt like I was half dead and I felt ugly. I felt like my eyes were swollen from the eye bags. Sometimes I had to conjure up what little energy I've left to stay awake.

But I'm surviving.

Anyway, I think I have abnormal metabolism rate or digestion rate. Or whatever. I ate a heavy breakfast (i ate rice for crying out loud) but about 3 to 4 hours later my stomach was making so much noise it was audible! It was freaking loud. Tini laughs at me whenever my stomach sings. Or should I say, growls. Damn! It's downright humiliating. There's something wrong with me, I'm sure. I eat, quite a lot, and very often (you have no idea how often) but I get hungry again so fast. And I can never gain any weight. I find it quite horrible.

Damn!

Yesterday, my Mandarin class was fun as usual. I was sabotaged. Hahah. See, we kinda played catching in class. We're supposed to translate what our teacher says in English to Mandarin. When we're not able to come up with the answer in time, one of us will become the blind mouse. He/She will have to close his/her eyes, spin 3 times and with eyes still closed, try to catch one of the rest of us. The person he/she catches will have to stand until the class gets to answer the next question. So this guy, Ai, became the blind mouse. He took quite a long time trying to catch one of us. Once, he almost got me but I quickly crawled under a table! Hahah! Anyway, I escaped. But later, he came towards my direction again but I was trapped. There wasn't anywhere I could run away from him. So I thought if I squatted on the floor and stay silent, he'll search blindly and wouldn't get me. He wouldn't but this other guy, Hairil, sabo-ed me by saying "Bawah! Bawah!" meaning "Down, down. On the floor." Something like that. I tried to back away but he got me. Walao! Hahaha! And everyone else were laughing and clapping la. Hahah. I was like "Thanks ah". But all the while I was laughing. So I had to stand while the rest sat. But it wasn't that bad la. The class was able to answer the next question and I got to sit back down.

I saw my Year 1 Nursing student cute guy!!! I was at this Blood Donation Drive thing at my school, volunteering, and he was there!! This other Year 1 Nursing student was there with me volunteering. I asked her his name and she told me a little about him. Hahaha! His name is.. Mazrudin! Hahah nice, nice? I like his height and his hair! He looks so shy! But really cute.

I watched the news today. Beckham's moving to LA. But that's not I want to talk about. It's his British accent I want to talk about. Oh God! I swear I'll go weak if anyone talks to me in that accent. I'll be in awe the moment a syllable comes out of his mouth.

And I can't wait for my school's open house!! It's going to be so exciting! I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait! I love Ngee Ann Polytechnic to the core, I tell you.
In my own world,
11:18 PM

I love my new phone! Really really love it.

I hate how stressful my school life is. Really really hate it. There are so many things to do. So many assignments. So much information to absorb. I find that it's draining me. Like it's asking too much of me.

Tomorrow I'm going to spend a lot of time on the computer finishing up my school work. I want to do EVERYTHING by tomorrow.

Let's see:
Law and Ethics
Psychology
Sociology
Nursing Science 3
NSL

Bloody hell.
In my own world,
11:25 PM