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Ashraf is driving me nuts.
In my own world,
10:51 PM

Went out almost the whole day today.

In the morning, I met Nisa and her Giant SuperMarket workmates to play pool. All the way at Clementi! I had to go out of my house like 1 to 2 hours earlier. Just like going to school. But it was fun going out with Nisa. I got to see Yan again. Cute and funny and tall as ever. Then we kinda went our separate ways around 3+pm. Me and Nisa didn't feel like going home so we went to school which is about walking distance. See how convenient everything is around Ngee Ann Poly? Love the school man. THEN. We saw Khai's and Fyruz's (Nisa likes him but he has a girlfriend) bikes. We just saw Khai and his girlfriend at the pool place. Now he's here. In school. With Fyruz. So Nisa went like OMG. It was near the library. So we kinda pretended to search for books but was actually looking for them. The whole library. But they weren't there so we just gave up and went to SIM to eat. THEN. Khai came in with his girlfriend. So we were like "ok." BUT THEN. Fyruz came in with HIS girlfriend. And you know how you'd go and feel when you like someone but he's with another girl. Nisa got excited, not really the good type of excited, and she was shaking. Her heart was thumping really fast. I SO can understand that. Her, liking Fyruz, isn't like the normal "Ooh I have a crush on him" kind of like. She kinda showed signs of love before. It's a long story. And I'm not sure if Nisa would appreciate it if I were to write about her love background. But, oh man. That Fyruz. He's practically two timing. He likes both girls, his girlfriend and Nisa. It's so sad. He's like leading her (Nisa) on. But now, things kinda have cooled down between them. Sigh.. Anyway, after that, we went our separate ways.

Took the train and went all the way back to the East side. Stopped at Tampines cuz that's where I'm meeting Taz. She was supposed to meet this new guy but in the end he didn't turn up. No. We didn't wait around for him. From the start, we were already walking around the mall, shopping. I went to look for my sister's birthday present. Decided to buy her a pink bag since she wants one. I saw the bag I liked in this shop. It's brown. Very very nice brown. And it's only 10 BUCKS!! Super cheap. So I bought the same design but in pink, for my sis. So that's done. Then we went to look for my shoes!! I love shoes. Bought this pretty yet sophisticated yet cute yet elegant black velvet shoes with a small, thin bow. It's super nice! Cost me almost 30 bucks man! I called my mom first to make sure she won't yell my ears off if I buy another pair of shoes. Then I saw many other nice shoes and they were all like $60 and $100! Then I picked out this lovely handbag which cost a bomb! I was picking and pointing out stuff and I have to say, I've pretty expensive taste. I'm not boasting. It's true. But then I spotted this cute purse which cost about $20. It's nice and I think the price was ok. But I didn't buy it. It was meant for slim stuff, like dollar notes, coins, pieces of papers and flat handphones. Since mine aren't so slim, I didn't think it'll look nice with it bulging. But maybe I could put my handphone in my pocket. But what if I don't have a pocket. See see. But Taz was crazy over it and she wants to buy it, another day.

So with two huge bags with two bags and a pair of shoes in it, it looked like I've shopped so much. It was so difficult for me to carry the stuff with me in to the crowded-to-the-seams Burger King where we met Taz's friend Zafira, who was eating with this guy she got to know from Friendster. She's very nice! The guy was ok. He's old. I guess you can call him friendly. But the questions he asked were like..erm.. He asked Taz which she prefered: Macs or BK, LJ or KFC. I was like "o-kayy.." His looks.. I'd rather not say. He rides a Scrambler. Erm...

After that, me and Taz walked around. And while walking, there was this two Malay, teenage guys (not Mats, thank God!) walking in the opposite direction we were walking. So it's like we were walking towards each other la. Then the guy nearer to me kinda raised his hand to my face, like his palm faced me, while walking past. I was like "What the." So I turned back and the other guy next to him was laughing and hit him on his back or something and turned back to us. I was like "What's up??", just in my head. He kinda looked like Haiqal. But I wasn't sure. Anyway, I don't think it was him.

Shopped for Taz's mother's birthday present next. Then my mom asked to buy this Rice Burger thing from Macs for her. I HAD to do it since I bought shoes and everything. I didn't want her to go "You can buy some more shoes which cost like a lot. But when I asked you to help me buy something which is so cheap, cannot is it?" Yup she didn't but she didn't like the Rice Burger thing. It sucked.

Got home around 10pm. And I'm beat!!

Oh and I read Shikin's blog! The MI days. I can't believe how much I actually enjoyed those days, freaking out everytime I see Jason Lim. The Valentine's Day!! Argh!! He waited around in class and then went up to me and thanked me for the card and wished me Happy Val's Day and smiled!! To me!! And I can't believe I actually made friends within the 3 months who turned out to be my closest friends such as Shikin and Sheri. Sigh.. So fun.
In my own world,
11:06 PM

In my own world,
12:41 AM

She's hurt. Nobody actually like her that much. She can't make anyone to be close enough to make a real friend. Doesn't anyone pity her? No wait. She doesn't want pity. She just want a real friend who'll go through everything with her. Someone who doesn't hate her.

She's f*cking hurt.

I don't know what to do. I wish I could stop her paranoia of everything.
In my own world,
9:18 PM

Vaseline

A little boy came down for breakfast one morning and asked his grandma, "Where's Mom and Dad?" and she replied, "They're up in bed." The little boy started to giggle and ate his breakfast and went out to play.

Then he came back in for lunch and asked his grandma "Where's Mom and Dad?" and she replied "They're still up in bed." Again the little boy started to giggle and he ate his lunch and went out to play.

Then the little boy came in for dinner and once again he asked his grandma "Where's Mom and Dad?" and his grandmother replied "They're still up in bed." The little boy started to laugh and his grandmother asked, "What gives? Every time I tell you they're still up in bed you start to laugh! What is going on here?"

The little boy replied, "Well last night daddy came into my bedroom and asked me for the Vaseline and I gave him super glue."


Son's Prayers

One night a father overheard his son saying his prayers "God bless Mommy and Daddy and Grammy. Goodbye Grampa."

Well, the father thought it was strange, but he soon forgot about it. The next day, the Grandfather died. About a month or two later the father heard his son saying his prayers again "God bless Mommy and Daddy. Goodbye Grammy."

The next day the grandmother died. Well, the father was getting more than a little worried about the whole situation. Two weeks later, the father once again overheard his sons prayers. "God Bless Mommy. Good bye Daddy."

This alone nearly gave the father a heart attack. He didn't say anything but he got up early to go to work, so that he would miss the traffic. He stayed all through lunch and dinner. Finally after midnight he went home. He was still alive!

When he got home he apologized to his wife. "I am sorry Honey. I had a very bad day at work today."

"You think you've had a bad day? YOU THINK YOU'VE HAD A BAD DAY!?", the wife yelled, "The mailman dropped dead on my doorstep this morning!"
In my own world,
6:02 PM

At the Golden Beach Hotel Lobby. First day in Desaru.


At a tasik in Bandar Penawar.


Hello?


Tini & I.


Tini, me & Lia outside the restaurant at Bandar Penawar where we made friends with the guy who works there. And it was where Nisa got a telephone number of this guy, named Burn, who works at the supermarket next door. Nisa threw the number away.


The 4 of us.


Nisa & I playing pool.


Lia & I staring at people at the pasar malam. So fun. We took a van by ourselves to the pasar malam and went back alone too. Super independent. That's where we saw so many bikes and Mat Malaysia and tudung-wearing girls who wear short sleeve shirts.


In our resort room. Last day at Desaru.
In my own world,
10:06 PM

Just got back from Desaru. Welcome me home. Went with my family and my friends Nisa, Tini and Lia. Went home with my friends only. My family stayed another night. I didn't see the point of staying another night cuz I don't think I'd have anything to do. So now I'm home alone until tomorrow.


The holiday was alright. The sea was b-e-a-utiful! The waves are a thousand times bigger than those in Singapore. I love the sea. But, during my stay there, we saw someone drown. People were crowding in groups. A girl was crying. I kinda saw a black something in the middle of the sea, appearing and then disappearing under the waves. Me, Nisa, Tini and Lia were shocked and confused why there weren't anyone out there trying to help. I saw 2 authorities just standing with the victim's relatives. What was that all about?!


The rooms were alright. Not that big. Four of us had to cramp into a queen/king size bed. It was super squeezy. Nisa and Tini slept at the two ends while me and Lia were between them. The first night, the room was so cold and my nose started running so I got up and went to the bathroom to get tissue paper. When I came back to the bed, I couldn't get in back! So at first I thought of sleeping on a chair and covered myself with clothes. But it was not very comfortable. So I slept on the floor. It was like sleeping on a slat of ice! I took some material and spread it on the floor at the end of the bed where the end of blanket was coming down. And then I covered myself with it and cloth and towel. I almost cried! I didn't have the heart to wake the others. But the second night was alright. I slept with a roll of toilet paper so that I won't have to get out of bed and not be able to get into it again. It was still squeezy.


We played pool and went to the nearest town to eat and shop. There was a pasar malam on the second night and it was fun. Oh my God. Even though Malaysia is just our neighbour, I already had a culture shock. A lot of people there ride motorcycle. In Singapore, on two people are allowed on a bike but over there, I saw three! I saw this man on the bike and one kid was in the basket in front of him and the other one sitting behind him. Hahah. They weren't wearing any helmet. Then at the pasar malam, I saw so many underaged kids riding a bike and driving cars! I was like woah! Do they even have license?


We even pee-ed in the male toilet. The female one was locked so someone told us we can use the male toilet. Hahah. I was hoping it was clean cuz, I mean, guys tend to stand when they pee.


Overall, it was alright. Not many activities but I got to go overseas with my friends so that's something. We did lots of laughing and photo-taking. Made friends too. Next time, I hope we go somewhere further. I have a longing to fly on an aeroplane. I miss it. I love planes a lot.
In my own world,
5:19 PM

Got a B for CMBio. Damned disappointed. Really. Can't tell you how disappointed I am.


I'm suddenly very miserable.


I want to graduate with a diploma plus merit. I need to focus (haha) and study super hard and pray a lot. I don't want emotions to get in the way.


Why I laughed when I said 'focus'? Cuz yesterday, we had a friendly match of Captain's Ball within our course. There's this one time, Nisa was blocking the opponent who has the ball. The opponent was this girl from another group. She's the cleverest girl in the course. Got so many distinctions and A's. OK so Nisa was blocking her and she heard the clever girl mumbled this to herself: "Focus. Focus." Ermm.. no comments.


roses are red
violets are blue
sugar is sweet
and so are you


but the roses are wilting
and the violets are dead
and the sugar bowl's empty
and so is your head


Reference from a blog: wadsmyage.diaryland.com


He's this guy from my friend's church. He's a super funny guy. Very cute. Very funny. You have to read a few of his entries.


http://wadsmyage.diaryland.com/050912_12.html
please please read this. i found it hilarious!

Some of the photos taken on the Captain's Ball Day:


These are the main players.


Group 11!! The united Greens!




Some of us at the playground.
In my own world,
2:53 PM

I saw my cute guy! I saw my cute guy! Argh!! So excited!


OK rewind back to last Monday. Last Monday, at the Clementi bus stop with Nisa, we saw my cute guy whom I've been eyeing since erm.. August or September. We got on the same bus to school and Nisa saw his nametag which was on his bag and his name is *drumroll* Ahmad Ruzaini! I love the Ruzaini name! Hahah.


So today, being Monday, we kinda expected to see him at the bus stop. We even skipped a bus. But, alas, he wasn't there so I decided we should just go. Then at 12++pm, I was studying for my test with Nisa and my two other friends at this table, when he walked pass. I was explaining something to Nisa but when I saw him my mind went into mush and I was getting excited! I was gripping Nisa's hand like crazy ok. She was like ow ow! Hahah. The guy saw me and like pretended to talk to his friend. Why I know he was pretending? Cuz it looked really fake. So I was so excited and grinning and shrieking la. After that, he disappeared. Then a few minutes later, I was still explaining stuff to Nisa and my back was turned away, Nisa saw him and like indicated to me. I turned and again all thoughts of DNA and RNA disappeared and I just got excited again. I tried to make it not obvious. And guess what?? He looked at me! Like erm 4-5 seconds. It's really long if you try it. So I looked at him back straight into the eyes. Then I look away. Then he disappeared again. And I erupted. Hahaha literally. Nisa was like He looked at you!


Argh!! I saw my cute guy! He recognizes me ok. The girl from the bus stop. And the girl who went crazy at seeing me. Hahaha! I would start this story of how I first saw him but I don't think anyone wants to know. And I'm too lazy to type everything out.


Ok here's for Shikin: 5 weird or random stuff about me.


1. I used to have crushes on cartoon characters. What the. I know.
2. I want to be rich.
3. I'm very proud at what Singapore has achieved.
4. I go crazy over cute guys. Like, who doesn't know that? And sometimes I find some nerds cute. Wait, do I really? Certain kinds la.
5. I'm quiet and shy around guys. Help me get over it!
In my own world,
5:22 PM

I am so easily influenced. I didn't use to listen to malay songs. But now I do. A little.


Been a little stressed lately and a tiny bit depressed. Stressed because of the assignments that needed to be done by last Friday. Two essays. One is 1200 words and the other is 1000 words. And it's not like the compositions we used to write in our secondary school days either. Because of this kind of essays, I'm losing my imagination. It sucks. Depressed because... I'm not telling.


Anyway, tomorrow is the start of my common tests week. Cell & Molecular Biology's first. It's difficult to understand. I hope I do well for it. Then it will be Fundamentals of Nursing, Pharmacology, and Nursing Skills Theory. After that, excitement is going to take over. Common tests will end on Thursday. So Friday, School of Health Sciences (Nursing), is going to have a Captain's Ball tournament! We're playing against classes and lecturers. Yes! I'm so excited. It's been such a long time since we've played Captain's Ball. Then, on Saturday, there's a make up Sports & Wellness class. So we have to go back to school for two hours of Aerobics. And then, my friend is planning on a sleepover at my house so that the next day, we can leave together. To where? My family and I, plus three of my friends are going to Desaru, Malaysia for a short holiday. 3 days and 2 nights. Might extend another day. See how it goes. I really hope it all goes well.


I recently discovered a game online which I thought was fun. It's called iSketch. It's like pictionary only you don't really have teams and you play against people from around the world. They'll take turns and give you a word for you to draw. It's funny at times. Interested, go to http://www.isketch.net
In my own world,
3:08 PM

Life can't get any worse than this. It really can't.


Don't make me feel.
In my own world,
4:08 PM