Thursday, December 23, 2010
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I've been stupid. I fell for his charms once again, and once again I hoped for something good to come out of it. I'm back to reading "He's just not that into you" again. And I really think this is it. I'm sick of his disappearing acts in my life. I'm sick of falling prey to his charms. I'm sick of having my hope crushed every single time. I've had it. I think this time I'm really going to rid him from my life. Obviously he's just not that into me and if he think he can find someone better, so be it.
I deserve better too...
School has been fine. So many assignments and projects. I DO NOT WANT TO BE THE GROUP LEADER! I can't lead. I end up bearing the brunt of the work not because I hate group work or that I want all the credit, but because I don't know how or what to delegate for them to do. I worry that I would be asking too much from them and that I give them too much work.
Actually I came here to vent my strong feelings against children abuse. I was SO MAD to the point of tears when I heard or read about news of children abuse. But the song I'm playing on repeat has soothed my anger. I am still mad though when I think back of the stories. I hate the abuser so much to the extent that I go blind with rage. Literally. I couldn't see anything that I can remember when I get that angry. Hot tears would spring to my eyes though. Maybe that's the cause that everything got blur.
I'm really pissed. All the abusers should be caught and tortured and then sentenced to death no matter if the kid is still alive or not. Worst still if the kid dies because of the abuse. I really want to stress on the torture part. They're being let off too easily by being sentenced to death. I think they should get triple of what they'd done to the kids. But then again, God will do the works once the abusers die anyway.
In my own world,
6:30 PM