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In my own world,
5:17 PM

I'm wishing I'm somewhere else right now. Like, maybe, somewhere across the world?


Yesterday, went for the HS barbecue at Punggol Point Holiday Camp. The place is really isolated. Took a bus and stopped at the last stop. We could only see trees. Ok not ONLY trees but that's the main thing we saw. It was near a beach. I don't think it's called a beach but there's the sea. Whatever. So then we walked, almost and THOUGHT we were lost but we weren't. Got in there, ate, talked and went to the seaside. Sat on the huge rocks and talked. It was very peaceful and pretty there especially during sun down. It COULD be a romantic place. Saw Min and yes, Min, I'm going to Taman Negara. I'm excited but I hope nothing crawls up on me. Especially not worms. Not leeches either please. I'm not having my blood sucked by a WORM! Heard we're going fishing. Please let me NOT see a bucket full of worms for the bait. PLEASE!


But i'm still excited as hell. I can't wait to go walking on the treetops bridge or whatever they call it. I can't wait to go into a cave. I can't wait to go river rafting (I think that's what they call it). I can't wait to go on a sleeper train!! It's my first time ever and I can't wait! This is SO EXCITING! God, I LOVE travelling and this is only Malaysia. Imagine if I got to go Antarctica. I'd go insane.
In my own world,
11:52 AM

Went to the Metro Sale at Expo yesterday evening. Bought quite a lot of stuff. By myself, I've already chosen stuff that was worth $130 over. With my sisters and everything, it added up to $200++. Predictably, I mostly bought clothes. And pretty undergarments of course. A girl can't have enough of those. I would have bought shoes and fragrances and bags but... my mom still have my sisters to think about. I love shopping! But that's just because it wasn't that crowded. I hate crowded areas.


I can't wait for the adventure trip to Taman Negara Malaysia. I'm sure it's going to be lots of fun!


Grey's Anatomy is on tonight. Definitely watching. They're so cool. Lot's of humour and wit. Love, love, love it.






I love the scrub suit. Ngee Ann Poly Nursing should have this suits made available. I'm sure everyone would want to wear a scrub suit. We've already feedbacked to them and they'll think about it. They'll want to go with the majority or see the long term thing or whatever. Please let them agree to this. The scrub suits are NICE!


My favourite characters in the show are:



Christina: She's cool and witty.



George: He is SOO CUTE! You have so got to watch the show to know what I mean.


One of my favourite scenes:
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: [standing in the bathroom, outside the shower, where George is] I reminded you before you went.
Dr. George O'Malley: I forgot when I got there.
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: No.
[she opens the shower curtain]
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: No, you were so passive aggressive!
Dr. George O'Malley: Naked! I am naked in the shower!
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: [closes the shower curtain] Just tampons, George! I really needed tampons. God!
[Meredith enters the bathroom]
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: I'm not riding in the same car as him.
Dr. Meredith Grey: [looks at Izzie, who is standing in her "Hello Kitty" underwear] Unless you're going like that, you're not riding with me either. Where are the tampons?
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: He didn't buy them.
Dr. Meredith Grey: [to George] You didn't buy them?
Dr. George O'Malley: Men don't buy tampons!
Dr. Isobel "Izzie" Stevens: [opens the shower curtain again, and George falls over] You know what? You're gonna have to get over the whole man thing, George! We're women! We have vaginas! Get used to it!
[she walks out of the bathroom, leaving George lying on the floor of the shower]
Dr. George O'Malley: I am not your sister!
[he slams the shower curtain]
In my own world,
1:09 PM

End of clinical attachment and start of our holidays began about 5 hours ago. I actually cried when saying goodbye to the patients, especially this particular patient. I miss her and I hope she gets well soon. By the way, I found out the cute podiatrist's name: James Valintine. How sweet/romantic does THAT sound? Hahaha. Today another caucasian podiatrist came. This one's from Australia. He has the perfect set of teeth I've ever seen. It was all sparkly white and straight. His lips...his smile.. oh my God. And his eyes! I think I'm a sucker for nice eyes or something. His was SO lovely. I could stare into them forever. His hair was blonde and curly. Like noodles/maggi mee. So cute. And also, his accent! I can't even begin to describe how pleasurable it is to hear him speak. His name is Robert James Ashton.


Watched the games thingy hosted in Melbourne. Watched table tennis. Singapore's table tennis team is just plain awesome! The women's team got Gold and the men's got Silver. Then for the mixed doubles, 3 teams of Singapore got Gold, Silver and Bronze. ALL Singapore ok. I was super proud of them. I was making so much noise cheering for them and clapping and all. I want to learn how to play table tennis.


Anyway, my parents bought this Osim stuff. Leg massage and the U-zap thing. Might help. Especially during clinical attachments. I really hope I don't develope spider veins/varicose veins on my legs. It's really ugly and gross.


Got my exam results today. I didn't do that badly. My GPA is 3.2. That's quite good don't you think? Previously, I got 3.0. I hope to try and do better. I love good results. I love doing well. And I also found out that our classes were changed. I'm still in the same class with Tini and Aisyah and some other girls but I'm seperated from Nisa! It's sad! It's mean that we're being split up. It's evil. I really don't want the 4 of us to be seperated. It's cruel. Sigh.. But like what Nisa said, Life has to go on.


And I've set my mind on studying further to become a doctor. I just hope I'll still look young by the time I get the title Dr. Dr. Nadiah. Sounds good. =)
In my own world,
8:10 PM

Tomorrow is the last day of clinical attachment. I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait! I'm going to sleep for a whole day before I do anything. I feel like going to the beach. Not to swim but just to sit there, enjoy the wind and the sound of the waves, alone.


I miss Mr. James Doe. A sudden thought.


Anyway, I know the previous entries about SGH weren't really compliments. But it was ok actually, once I know the ward routine. The ward nurses were wonderful. I guess they have nicer Staff Nurses than the ones they have in CGH. One thing I still don't like about SGH is that it's far from my house; I have to go out of the house at 0530hrs. And the walk to the ward already takes 10 minutes. It's FAR! I still don't know why it's much more tiring in SGH than in CGH. I think I stood longer in SGH than in CGH. You know what? Whatever. I don't think I'm going back to SGH anyway. It's going to be in CGH all the way from now on except for postings to Paediatric/Mental/O&G wards.


Oh and one major thing I liked about this ward in SGH is that they have this utterly good looking Caucasian podiatrist who comes in a few times into my ward to do dressings on my patients. Super hot that makes your knee melts, gorgeous eyes and intriguing accent. I've had some moments with him. Not going to elaborate though. He's from New Zealand, by the way. We're going to see him again tomorrow. That'll be the last time.


Clinical attachment is FINALLY going to be over. I'm exhausted down to my bone marrow. I'm getting my results of my exams tomorrow. I hope I do well.
In my own world,
8:04 PM

It's been a week.


Monday
Morning shift. After work, went to watch 'Mine, Yours & Ours' with Min. The movie was super sweet. The kids were super cute. But it wasn't Min's type of movie. Bought a Celine Dion CD. Love her. Great voice, great music. Borrowed a book at the library, a historical romance novel. My favourite kind. Went home and was dead beat. I watched Dia halfway and wanted to go to bed or else I'll be falling asleep even when I'm changing patients' diapers. I asked my mom to tape Grey's Anatomy.


Tuesday
Morning shift. Got home, and found out I couldn't watch Grey's Anatomy on the tape. Asked my mom about it but she didn't know what happened. I guess the tape kinda messed up. I became depressed. Haha. I missed an episode of Grey's Anatomy.


Wednesday
Afternoon shift. Fiq gave me a ride home. Waited quite some time for him. While waiting, I became the direction person. 3 people came up to me to ask for directions. One asked directions to Block 5 which I so confidently know since I'm AT Block 5. Another asked me directions to the toilet. I hesitated a little since I've never used a public toilet in the hospital before. But I remembered once during debrief that Neela said something about toilet on the first floor. I didn't know that could be so useful. So I told the man the directions. And he was like, "You're right, you're right! Thanks. Have a nice day!" I felt pleased. Then a couple came up and asked where they should report an accident. I was struck dumb. I had no idea. But during the hospital orientation I saw this police stand at the A&E department. So I told them to go to the A&E department. When they hesitantly walk away, I was praying that Fiq would arrive soon and that no one would ask me anymore directions. Finally, he came and I had much difficulty sitting properly on the bike since I was wearing the uniform. My skirt went right up to my thigh. Humiliating. Well anyway, the ride was ok. Scary a little. The wind was very cooling, to the brink of cold. Got home and realized that nobody taped 'Teman Anugerahku'. Kinda pissed off a little. I mean, they knew it's one of my favourite shows.


Thursday
Afternoon shift. Worst day of the week. This man wanted my contact number. It was disgusting and Shermine only walked behind me, laughing. She only rescued me at the last minute. I don't even want to think of that gross incident. I was trying to pretend I didn't know him. UGH!! But I HAD to be polite. Then during work this patient was making much noise but she wasn't under my care but then this visitor of another patient came to me while I was doing something else and said that this noisy patient wants attention. I was like "Oh God, let it be something I can do easily." But alas, it was not. This patient, with fire in her eyes, demanded to see the doctor regarding about her illness. I didn't know what I should do, since I'm just a student and I have to report everything to the staff nurse first. But I don't know the staff nurse in charge so I asked a fellow student nurse in that room what the patient wants. But she hardly helped me with anything. She told me to tell the patient something and the patient went to raise her voice at me. I was like "Whoa!" And by this time, I had the attention of everyone present in that room. It was downright humiliating. What could they be thinking, do you wonder? That I'm a bad nurse that I don't know what to do with this patient? That I have to get help from another student nurse? That I DON'T even know the patient? It is truly not my fault. I wasn't in charge of that room! All eyes were on me and I could feel my heart racing and my face heating up. The worst feeling ever. Ended work. Got home and my mom told me that my uncle taped Grey's Anatomy. I was happy.


Friday
Afternoon shift. I was already getting fed up of her. She does her work in a slipshot way. I hate it. Really irresponsible. I can't stand it. But, being me, I couldn't bring myself to show my anger or 'fed-up-ness'. But once, however, I was really pissed off and almost snapped at her. God! But, again being me, I couldn't really hold any anger for long. Ended work and bumped into another student nurse from our school. He is so full of crap. I have no idea why he was describing the procedure of changing diapers, step by step. He looks like this nerd who plays computer games all day, but he speak of doing something wild that night. He told Shermine and I of how he would go to this club and laugh at drunkards. -_-" He talks too much. And he wanted to hold my bag, which is really a girl's handbag, and told me to carry his while he carries mine. I felt embarrassed for him. Shermine did too. I was in between him and Sher and it was so squeezy. Then somehow, I managed to exchanged places with Sher but she switched places again. We were like laughing nervously and nudging each other. Even though how crappy he is, we did laugh some but not because he was funny. We just had to be polite. Got home feeling really exhausted.


Today
Finished the book I borrowed. It was nice.
In my own world,
3:21 PM

I'm tired. I am SO tired. I've never been this tired in my whole life. And this "tiredness" is going to go on for 2 more weeks. My legs are aching something horrible. I seriously need a massage. I need to buy an Osim machine for my legs.

I've started my Clinical Attachment since Monday. I'm not posted to CGH this time but to SGH which is SO far and I have to leave my house even earlier than I do when I go to school. It's unbelieveable. Sometimes I wonder, of all places why am I living in one end of the country. I should stay somewhere central so I can go anywhere around this country without having to wake up so early and go out so early and rushing just to get the early bus. I hate it. I hate doing all this journeying especially when I have to wake up SO early in the morning and having to get the first bus or I'll be late. It sucks to the bloody core.

So anyway, this posting is much much MUCH more tiring than when I was posted to CGH. I didn't have to wake up so early since it's just about half an hour bus ride to the hospital, unlike to SGH, it's more than an hour bus and train ride. In SGH, I find myself standing more often. I hardly get to sit down. I can seriously tell you how long I've sat during my shifts. I only sat for an hour for every shift of 8 hours. It's horrible. I hate standing now. And I don't really like the ward I'm in now in SGH. I so much prefered CGH. I wanna go back to Ward 47.

The only thing that I like since I've started my attachment is that I've someone who "accompanies" me when I reach home. He'll ask me how my day was and everything. It's really sweet. I wish I can type out everything that happened between us but he reads my blog so I don't want him to know. And I realized, quite recently, that I've competition. *shrugs* I don't know..... He's really sweet. Sigh..

I dreamt of you.
Part of me wishes that I'm the only one you invited and that I'm the only one who you are going to spend your day with.. *shrugs and smiles lamely*
In my own world,
8:22 PM

Damn gross man! Shut up! Gawd! I'm like, what-ever man. Just zip it!

Yesterday I cleaned my side of the room. Threw all the stuff that I won't be using anymore. Threw the FON powerpoint notes. What's the point of stacking it up and let it to collect dust? I don't have any storage area for them. Besides I already made my own notes on them. And it took much lesser papers. Besides, I have the thick textbook to refer to. It's so thick and heavy and still looks so new.

I also threw away my magazines that I've kept since God knows when. I kept them cuz I found them a great way for re-using. All the colourful pictures and words. I could make it into a card or whatever. I did tried once making a birthday present for someone special, who lives miles away. I really mean miles away. Different timezones. BUT, my sister ruined it! She ruined the WHOLE thing. I was SOOO mad. Furious. Crazy mad. I worked on that gift SO hard ok. I'd painstakingly cut out all the little pieces of stuff from the magazine, I drew such an accurate picture of the Simpsons family which looked SOO nice, I pasted them in this very nice and stylish way and I wrote stuff in the notebook. It was the hardest and most personalized present I've ever made. I was halfway doing it, wasn't finished, when something happened.. and I stopped doing it. But I couldn't bring myself to throw it away. So I kept it all, but in the back of my mind, I thought that I would finish it in due time and give it. Then one day I found out they were gone. ALL OF IT. I was fucking mad. My blood was at the boiling point. And it was none other than my sister! I think I didn't speak to her for the longest time ever. I really hated her that time. Now my work is all down the dumps. It was totally heartbreaking.

Sigh..

Anyway, I also filed away all the notes and worksheets and assignments from the past year that I find useful. Gonna have to give space for YEAR 2. I'm going to be in Year 2 in May.

Then I arranged my bags. I love bags. I'm going to buy more when I've saved up enough. Not like I don't have any money. I've more than enough right now. But I want to save up more so that when I do buy a bag later, I won't be left with so little money. Like for example, I've like $150 in my wallet. Can buy a few bags right? But if I saved some more, maybe like until $200-$250, then when I buy bags which are worth, maybe, $20-$50, I'd still have $150-$200 left. Feels so much better than only having $100 with you right? I mean 100 is so close to being a two digit number. I love money. I know, I know, "Money aren't everything" or "Money doesn't make one happy". But currently, at my age, in my country, in this period of life, money DOES make me happy. And I'm not selfish.

Anyway, I know one person who is going to be my junior! My ex-neighbour and very, very close friend since we were in Primary 1. I moved when we were in Primary 6. We still keep in touch. Go to the same religious class until last year where we graduated. Now she's going to be in the same school and course as me. She was so happy when she told me at 10.46am. Hahah we're both so excited. Wheee!

I read today's New Paper. There was this article about the coloured-bra rule in some girls' schools. The school doesn't allow the students wearing coloured bras and you know what the punishment is? The students have to take them off and go through the day until the reach home without a bra! Their bras were confiscated and are not returned to them. Outrageous! It's so humiliating la. What's wrong with coloured bras anyway? Are they really distracting? Really, really distracting? The world must be full of stupid perverts that they have to make this rule. Anyway, the punishment was so fucked up. No bras throughout the day? Imgaine doing PE without bras. How uncomfortable, my God! Anyway, now they have the school bookshop selling white bras when their coloured bra is confiscated.

Unbelievable.

Well, I should go now. Cook rice.

I saw this advertisement in the papers too:
Do you know...
that Nurses play an important role in the patient's road to recovery?
As a nurse, you'll be one of the most important members of our healthcare team. Nursing is a specialised profession that safeguards the health of our nation. You'll work in a challenging environment and will have learning opportunities to widen your knowledge. Join us today for a meaningful and rewarding career.
Be a Professional. Be a Nurse.

Then there's this big picture of this at-first-sight-cute guy. He looked SO freaking familiar. Then when I look closer I saw his nametag:
Md Haizad Imran
Staff Nurse
That sounds SO freaking familiar as well. So I looked him up in the Internet. And he's one of those guys who entered Singapore Idol! The handsome, tall guy. Not one of the top 10 though. He acted in Shooting Stars too. I didn't watch so I didn't recognize him. Well, anyway, he's a NURSE. He's working at Institute of Mental Health. It was on his nametag.

SWEET!
In my own world,
3:30 PM