Thursday, April 16, 2009
What my future holds.
I have so many things that I want to do but I have no idea how to go about doing it. I keep hitting a wall whenever I think about the money and time needed to do the things that I wanna do or wanna have.
Like for Sign Language classes, if I were to finish all the levels, it'd take me another year and another S$450. And then I wanna take up dance classes which would cost me about S$260 if I were to continue up till the intermediate level. And then there's the Bachelor's I want to get which will cost about S$15,000. And then what about travelling? Don't tell me I'm going to be in Singapore for the next 3 years?
Oh my God, Oh my God! What am I going to do?!
Maybe I'll just take the Beginner's Level for the dance class. It's not like I'm going to be a professional dancer.
Let's see. I'll probably finish all levels of Sign Language class by July 2010. And then I'll start the dancing class which if all goes well, I'll finish by November 2010. After that, it'll be about 5 to 6 more months till I finish my bond with KKH in April 2011, where I might take a year off from work to study for my Bachelor's. That will finish by July 2012.
And then what? And then WHAT?
Should I go back to working with KKH CE? Or should I work in CGH A&E? Should I go from working in a Paediatric A&E to an Adult A&E? Will it be an easy transition? How long should I work before going overseas to pursue my Master's? Maybe another 2 years? Oh God. By that time I'll be 26 years old! I'll be so old!
The future is really scaring me. The more I think about it, the more I panic and the more I want to cry!
Somebody save me! Or donate me money.
ARGH!
In my own world,
11:54 PM