Thursday, March 12, 2009
Go crazy.
I have insomnia! I hate not being able to sleep at night. Last night I only fell asleep at 7am la sia! The whole night kept tossing and turning in bed, my brain also kept churning thoughts that I wished I could get a hold of, put it in a box and throw it away. In the end at about 5.30am I messaged him telling him that he's missed, by me. He replied back at 7am which I only read at 12.30pm when I woke up.
=) I've been thinking about you lately too.
Wah! I want to be happy but I forced myself not to read too much into it. I'm taking it slow. But the rest of his messages is forcing the light of hope into my eyes. I shouldn't be hoping. I should just be happy with what it is now. Oh well. See how it goes. For now, we are friends. And maybe that's all it is to it.
Work was quite good today except for some things (more like someone) which only me and Sheryn are really pissed about. I had to press Glucose 50%-soaked gauzes around a kid's swollen penis. It took almost 1.5 hours just to reduce the swelling la. I truly enjoyed it because the kid and his parents are super nice. At the end when his foreskin is able to close around his penis they were all like "Thank you Nurse Nadiah!". Feel super damn good la. And Dr. Yeo said I can be a penis specialist, be a "pe-nurse". What the. Hahaha. And he said should my husband have this problem I'd know what to do, no need to bring him to the A&E. Wah seh. In front of the patient and the mother some more. Very good.
The thing that got me a little upset was when I was finally free to go for break, even if it is 15 minutes, he didn't allow. Then when finishing my shift, which is actually at 1.30am, he told me to go at 1am. But there were hardly any nurses around as most went for break. So if I go, what if busy? He can cope alone meh? I hung around so that I can at least help out some until the others come back from break. But he actually scolded me for not going, saying that he already tell me to go so many times, still never go. What the.
In my own world,
3:16 AM