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I have one nice thing to blog and one super not nice thing to blog. I'll speak of the good one first.

On Monday, I was afternoon shift. Towards the end of my shift I kept feeling my phone vibrating. Don't know who keep calling and keep messaging. Finally when I ended my shift, I checked my phone. Just in time, Dan called me. He came to accompany me home! I was pleasantly surprised. When we met, I asked him why he suddenly came that night. Then, you know what he said? He said he only thought of buying 100 plus at East Point so since CGH is so near, might as well come and see me and accompany me home. Hahaha. What the hell. I was like "YA RIGHT!". Hahah truthfully, he just misses me. =) So ya. At the bus stop, while accompanying him till his bus arrives, I gave him our 2 months gift, or whatever you call it. The gift included a card that I made. I told him not to read it until he gets on the bus. Because I'm shy la. Ya. So then he got on the bus, I went up to my house and anxiuosly waited for his message. And... I got the reply I wanted. Yay me! =)

So, on to the horrible thing that happened, which happened today, at work.

I took charge of 7 patients. Half the team. It's all alright. I did the report, medications, my SN in charge hardly touched my patients' files. It was all mine. So during passing report time, we could have passed earlier, like 2030hrs but we had to wait for the Night Shift EN. So the passing of report only started like 2100hrs. I was passing like a freaking train. But the other teams who haven't passed yet were rushing me, saying the rest still haven't pass. And Shermine was like "Nadiah, faster la!" What the HELL!! I was passing so fast that I missed out some stuff. I was flipping the freaking pages so roughly that I thought it'd tear out of the file. 7 patients, you know or not! Blame the EN for coming so late. And you all try la passing report of 7 patients with people coming late, people talking, people rushing you. I was super angry sia. Super super angry that when I met Rebacca's eyes, she was like "You ok or not?", absolutely angry that I cried at the bus stop and in the bus. I was super pissed off. I wanted to swear and yell and throw things. I even thought of throwing my phone sia.

Bye!
In my own world,
10:10 PM

You know that incident I talked about? About that touchy-feely HCA? It got quite big. Ms Siti came down, and then Thomas came down to see us. And then Mag, Riana and Nurul decided to make a police report. And just yesterday, we went to see the Director of Nursing (DON) and the Assistant Director of Nursing (ADON).

Ward 46 has been fine. Sister Ho's been keeping us all on our toes.

This coming Friday I'll be going back to school for the PDA update. Then there's supposed to be an overnight movie marathon in school. But I'm not sure if I want to go. If only Dan can be home alone.

The next day the CGH girls have a 'beach party' at East Coast. A bit lazy to go also.

Haiya! Why can't he be home alone??

Anyway, about a week ago, I went out with my BFFs. Aisyah's bf brought his little 6-year-old brother. Adorable.


My partner for the day? Sorry Tini. Hahah.


All of us. My partner's such a dear.


My BFFs with their bfs at my house.
In my own world,
12:58 PM

Which is today. Hahah.

No la. Will still be MIA.

Right after this.

If I could have a few wishes,
I would wish to wake up everyday
To the sensation of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of your fingers on my skin,
And the strings of your heart strumming with mine.

Knowing that I could never find that feeling
With anyone other than you.
In my own world,
10:30 PM

I will be MIA until... until my next entry.
In my own world,
7:03 PM

Ward 39 was superb! I love the staff, I love the work. Usually it's 'I hate work'. But because Ward 39 have the best staff ever, I really don't mind it.

The next group going to Ward 39 are SO going to love it. They have the best group of staff I've ever come across.

Anyway, something odd happened at work today. Magdalene and I went to Ward 29 (our previous ward) JUST to show SN Chai who's SN Yumei, because we were all gossiping about the staff. Unfortunately, SN Yumei wasn't on duty today. So we wanted to go back to out own ward but the HCA of Ward 29 stopped me and Mag, asking us to buy the pink ribbon badge (the breast cancer awareness thing). So, thought and thought about it, we decided to get it, $2 each. I only had $10 note with me. So I was waiting for the HCA to give me my change back. He's this friendly HCA la, so whatever convo I type, think it in a friendly way. So anyway, I was waiting. Then he asked, "Yes, what are you waiting for?" So I put out my hand and said "My change.". Then he took my hand and kinda 'stroke' it? I didn't think too much about it cuz I thought he was just being friendly and is those touchy-feely kind of person. So then he went to get the change. He gave me a $2 note and the rest in coins. So I was like "Wah, I don't want coins!" in a laughing kind of way. Then he was like laughing and laughing and then he took the money back saying he'll go and get it changed into notes and return them to me later. Then, again, he took hold of my hand and bent to kiss me on the cheek. I was like WOAH, OK. Before he got to my cheek though, I've already pulled back. So he kinda kissed the air above my shoulder. I mean I'm not really used to it and it's not really appropriate. Again, I didn't really thought about it too much, cuz I really thought he was just being friendly, just like the ang mohs. I told Mag when we left for our own ward and she was like "What!". Then she told Riana and Pearlyn and Riana was like "Ya! I was so angry with him. He tried to kiss me and I was like get away from me!" Then an SN told us to report to our lecturer. So that's when I started to think maybe, just maybe, he was being over friendly? Anyway, later, he returned my change, in notes. He tried to kiss Mag's hand but she pulled it back before his lips touched her hand.

*Shrugs*

Anyway, SN Chai is damned funny. Mag and I were talking to him and we were laughing like shit. Seriously. I almost cried. Mag was telling him some gossip. She said something like this male staff nurse we worked with in the previous ward looks gay or is gay or something. Then SN Chai went "*Gasp*. Let me cover my dots." and went to cover his nipples with his fingers! HAHAHAHA! It was something like that la. Super funny. Mag and I doubled over in laughter for about a minute. Then Mag told SN Chai that this SN likes this female staff nurse named Yumei. So Mag was saying "Kelvin likes Yumei" but SN Chai heard it as "Kelvin likes YOU, MAN". So his face was like this super shocked expression, clutching his hands towards his chest saying "He likes me??!!" And Mag and I burst out laughing for about another minute. HAHAHAHA!

Tomorrow, I'm going out with Tini, Ais and Nisa. Don't know why not very excited about it. Even asked my mom if I can NOT go out tomorrow. But she chastised me. So have to go out. I think it's because I don't like the 'couple couple' thing.
In my own world,
10:18 PM

I'm really happy for you two!

So exciting!

Haha.
In my own world,
9:32 PM

I have so much in my mind that I long to put into words right here on this blog.

But this blog is hardly private. Even if I make a private one, I don't want to 'talk' to myself.

I can't even write in vague terms cuz people tend to think a lot. Ends up, they think I'm talking or hinting about them. And some stuff I have in mind are not meant for them to know because God knows what will happen to the relationship I have with this people. And when I say people, I meant two persons.

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I've something to be excited about. It's not about me though. But I can't say ANYTHING until he tells me the good news. It's really very sweet and I can't even say that I'm _______. Because the other person will ask me about it and... it'll just be horrible.

It's torture not to be able to say anything. And that coming from someone as 'quiet' as me is quite amazing as people usually think I don't have much to talk about.
In my own world,
5:01 PM

Got this from a website Zhang Yang discovered.
In my own world,
8:42 PM

I'm feeling so much better. I'm ever so thankful to feel the heavy weight of illness's been lift off of my shoulders. The first day of work during my time of illness, I was horribly surprised by how loose my uniform was on me. From around 40kg, I dropped to about 37kg. Skinny shit.

Work has been fine so far. I've been writing and passing reports. I've been serving medications and have at least some inkling of knowledge on what I'm giving them. The feeling of pure accomplishment when I'm able to answer the questions thrown to me by the patients and/or relatives is utterly satisfying. I've been doing near perfect admissions and thus, getting lots to sign in my logbook. I'm still pretty far from being a real staff nurse but I'm seeking all the opportunities. I've also been revising my objectives almost every day after work. I go through my logbook and write a list on what skills I can do the next day so that I can get it signed on that day. Seriously. I'm like so driven.

And, I don't know, this week, starting Monday night at 2100hrs, it's been quite a happy week. =)
In my own world,
8:23 PM