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Tini and I went to Far East today to check out shoes and get my hair done. This is the 2nd time I've been to this hair salon. The first time was with Mumtaz. She got jealous of my hair. Today, my hair looked great again and Tini's jealous. I LOVE this hair salon. It gives great hair for a reasonable price. VERY reasonable. They're really good but their shop looks so modest. It's great.

At Mondo, we saw this sale: $10 for 2 pairs of shoes! Super cheap la! And the shoes very nice one ok. I could buy one pair, Tini another pair and we each pay only $5! What a sale! But, we didn't buy it. I still have shoes I could still use. I want to save money.

An Ang Moh guy looked at me today. Pretty cute. Tini and I just walked pass him to the pedestrian crossing. Turned back, saw him and he was barefooted! I was like what the. There were many many cute caucasian guys as usual.

At the MRT station, I saw my future baby. Samsung Z540! Absolutely love it. It looks great and it's a super slim 3G phone. I want it! It's either I get this one or Samsung E770. I'm a true Samsung consumer. Hahah.
In my own world,
7:47 PM

I've just volunteered to join a camp that wants first aiders. Samad persuaded me. Nadeera's going also. So I'm going. Right.

5-9 June: Common Test
9-11 June: "Samad's" Camp
12-15 June: First Aid Course & Test
19-25 June: Class Outing
26 June-9 July: Clinical Attachment
23 July: Tini's BBQ
In my own world,
10:48 PM

I had a dream and 'he' was in it. And in it, he smiled at me. In that dream also, I had a brother. A little brother. He was so cute. Adorable.

There are so much to study.

Loud, annoying, irritating, copycat, big-time flirt, bloody attention-seeking, you. Get the hell out of my life. And my friends' life.
In my own world,
7:10 PM

The dread of going to the Red Cross meeting was accumulating to the level I don't like by the time I finished my last lecture. But I went anyway. I was BRAVE!

So the meeting was at the Sports Complex. At first I didn't know the group of people at one corner was the Red Cross people so I just stood somewhere else maybe hoping that when the meeting starts then I'll find out. BUT luckily, two of my coursemate came, they also went to the Taman Negara Trip, so I know them quite ok la. So I was like PHEW! Went to the group, sat and realized 'she' was there. I was like, what the hell, what the hell, what the hell! But whatever. Oh! And Sakinah (not sure of the spelling) talked to me in "Aku, kau".

So the meeting started. Gonna have a First Aid Course in June, a test for it, and I'll get my First Aid certificate! Yay! Bloody excited. And in August there'll be a camp! Fun! Ok then we had this round of introduction. When it came to my turn, "I'm Nadiah, from School of Health Sciences, Year 2" the Vice-President of Red Cross, Ambrose, was all smiling and saying "Oh you! The enthu(siastic) one! Gave 3 sign-up entries" And the President of Red Cross was like "Oh ya!" Then Ambrose was like "Glad to finally meet you! The emails.. very good." I was all the way smiling and laughing la. Center of attention sia. The President and Vice-President know of me! Hahaha! Absolutely made my day. OK the reason why I got 3 sign-up entries was because the first time I got the sign-up card, I didn't know who to give it to. So I emailed the RCHN and asked where do I hand in the card. But before I got the reply, I decided to post it by snail mail! Hahah.. then I got the reply saying:

Greetings!

Hi Nadiah!

Glad to know you wish to sign up for NP RCHN! :)

Anyway, I would be depositing a dropbox at your School of HS block, Level 7, Staff Room. It should be available by this coming Tuesday. I would also be arranging for more Sign Up Cards to be made available. Meantime, do ask more friends to join RCHN with you and also spread the message that there would be more Sign Up Cards available at the Staff Room.

--
Regards,

Ambrose Lee
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
NP RCHN Chapter (Vice-President)

So I replied back that I've already sent a sign-up card by post and asked if I should wait for the card to get to them or should I hand in another sign-up card? But before I got the reply, again, I filled up another card and hand it in at the office, in case they didn't get the posted one. Hahah! Then, I got another email from the RCHN, saying:

Hello again!

Hahaa...seriously...this is really funny! :) Know why? I can just get your details here as well. Hahaaa!

Name:
Gender: Female definitely? :)
NRIC No:
Contact No.
Student No.
School:
Course:
T-shirt size: - S=38,M=40,L=42,XL=44,XXL=46:
Email Address: Same as above I suppose?

cca_rchn@np.edu.sg

Hmmm, anyway, something to take note, we are closing this GMAIL account as we are given an official NP RCHN Email Account from the school. As such, please reply your particulars to the email address above? Sorry for any inconvenience caused.


--
Warmest regards,

Ambrose Lee
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
NP RCHN Chapter EXCO Member (Vice-President)

Hahahah! So then I replied, said that no worries, no inconvenience caused and then told him that I already put the 2nd card at the office! So now that I'm to fill this up, there'll be three. Pick one! Haha. Ya so that's how the Pres and Vice-Pres know of me. Hahah.

After the meeting ended I was walking past Canteen 2 (or is it 3? Near the sports complex there) when someone shouted my name. Turned and saw it was Samad. He seemed so hyped up, excited kind of thing. He was gesturing come here, come here. I was like Huh? What does he want? Cuz he doesn't usually talk to me. Yea, so I was super curious la. Then he told me there was going to be a video-screening so I thought there was going to be a video and he wants me to watch it. Which brought me to another question, Why does he want ME to watch the video with him? So he just brought me to a table in the canteen and told me that later there'll be a camera coming to shoot us. I was like WHAT THE! Where? And he was like "Coming." Then he told me it was for making a video to promote a Muslim club or something? And since I was there, he decided to bring me in. Then he told me to pretend that we're chilling at the canteen, talking.. or whatever. I was like OMG! Everything's in a rush. I haven't done my make-up! How do I look? Am I supposed to say anything or do something? Ok I didn't tell him all this of course. Then I saw the camera and I was like "Die!" Super sudden la! And Samad talked to me and asked me what I'm doing here and everything. He talked to me in "Aku, kau" seh. Wah, feel so honoured, nice, or something like that. Like he regards me as a close friend or something. So the camera came and he was like waving to the camera while someone in the background say something like "Bersantai..bla bla bla" And the camera went one round around our table shooting us. I was all the way smiling (might turn out fake), probably blushing as well, and saying "What the hell, what the hell, oh my God, oh God.." while at the same time I was smiling. You know that kind of thing, mumbling under your breath. Ya. Then it ended. What a relief!

And now I'm home. Tired!

Oh today, Faizal finally saw me and smiled at me. Yup.

And I saw that 'guy'. The one, if you read my entry on the NP Open House, who kept looking at me, whose girlfriend stomped off when we looked at each other while I was in MegaBites, who I've been trying to ignore and avoid. I've seen him so many times! Cannot avoid one leh! Walao.

Ooh! And I saw Zac's abs. Very nice.
In my own world,
8:06 PM

Do you know what happened to me in the train on my way to school this morning? I was in a light slumber. Peacefully asleep in the train, when the lady, who's probably about 60-ish, sitting next to me went "AAAHHHCCCHHHOOO!!!" It damned right gave me a bloody shock that I woke up with a start. I practically jumped 3.5 inches off my seat! It's a bloody miracle I didn't get a heart attack as well. Imagine the news. Girl's heart attacked by a giant sneeze. Walao. I was so embarrassed la. I didn't dare look into anyone's eyes in case they saw.

Skipped the last lecture today and went home with Sher. Was bloody tired. Decided to study at home. And I did. I made notes for Pharmacology. Super proud of them.

Anyway, tomorrow, I'm gonna have my first Red Cross meeting. Down right nervous. The feeling is like the first day of school where you don't know anyone. Yea. I hope it'll turn out ok. I can't believe I'm doing this alone with no one I know. How independent of me.

Gonna go watch TV now.

BYE!
In my own world,
8:21 PM

Everybody's sick nowadays. It's the sick season. I hope I won't catch the bug. I hate being sick. Hate it like hell.

Today in NSL we learnt how to insert NGT into a patient. Aaron and Jeanette volunteered to be the patient. Both times were bloody unsuccessful. For Aaron, the tube went in the wrong way, into the lungs, and when our lecturer took the tube out, it was bloody. Not THAT bloody. But there was blood. Aaron shed tears. It was kinda painful. Then for Jeanette, I put the tube into her. I was f***ing scared la. My hands were shivering like crazy but I volunteered to put in the tube so I can get experience before going to the real hospital setting, so I had to do it. But it wasn't 4 inches of the tube that went into her nose (for those who don't know, the tube is supposed to go into the nose, down the oesophagus, into the stomach) when I had to stop cuz she couldn't stand the pain. I was super disappointed la. Became depressed man. Haha. I want to do the insertion again, though.

Went home with Sher.

I'm gonna go back to my note-making. I HAVE to study. Concentrate!

And to Felicia, if you ever read my blog, (which somehow I don't think so, but what the hell) if you want US to go out, you're coming with us. And you're not going to escape. I'm super shy la.
In my own world,
9:27 PM

Watched Singapore Idol. Oh. My. God.
But they didn't show all those who got in. So hopefully those I didn't see on TV are better than those I saw just now. I was cringing and closing my eyes almost the whole time.

I watched the re-run of this week's American Idol. I shed tears while watching Elliot Yamin got the boot. He's adorable. It's so sad seeing him leave.

Omg. Is it so obvious we're not close anymore? Tini noticed, Shermine, whom I've only got close with, noticed, even her brother noticed that we're not close anymore! How? I'm not sure I wanna ask. Super depressing. She has someone else to take my place. She's content with her new group of friends. I've no significant place in her life like I used to have last time. She doesn't need me anymore. And I hate that I feel what I feel about this issue. Sigh.. I'm gonna miss her brother. **** it. Now I feel like crying. I wish I could just harden my heart and take Sher's advice to just forget about it and get over it but I can't help thinking of the past. I'm trying not to. I just want the way things used to be. I should shut up before my mom finds out I'm crying.

Sigh.. I feel very stupid this semester. I've been slacking like crazy in my studies. Skipping lectures. Walao. But it's not totally my fault. They just don't know how to organize everything properly. They teach us something then giving us assignments on something else. What the. Common tests are coming up in about 2 weeks, I think. I wish I have a week of study-break so that I can catch up on my studies and make my own notes. I know I can do it in 1 week.

Anyway, anyway. I might have a CCA already! RED CROSS. So exciting. I might be able to take part in the NorthStar Exercise. Or during NDP. And it might do good for my non-academic area.

I need to buy 1 month change of clothing. So every day of a month I have something different to wear. Then the next month I'll follow the sequence of Month 1. So in 1 year, each outfit will be worn only 12 times. I should do that. But first, I need to save up lotsa money. I shall start next month when my next allowance come. I WILL save up. If it means having to leave my wallet behind and half-starving my ass off, I'll do it. I hate being broke. The feeling just suck to the core.
In my own world,
9:58 PM

I miss my St. Anthony's Canossian Secondary School days.
I miss wearing uniform to school.
I miss my school uniform.
I miss singing every morning during assembly.
I miss Mr. Tan Tze Siong!
I miss my group of friends.

I miss my CCA Concert Band.
I miss playing music during CCA.
I miss blowing into my instrument.
I miss the music.
I miss my inctructor, Mr. Nasir.
I miss performing for SYF and any occasions with my band.
I miss the uniform.
I miss tying and wearing the tie.
I miss wearing the almost-to-the-knees socks.
I miss Natalie Koh!
In my own world,
6:27 PM

School was great today!

Me, Tini and Aisyah were very mischievous and cheeky and naughty today.

First thing in the morning we had NSL. But our NSL lecturer wasn't present. So we just practiced some of the skills we've learned. There weren't any other lecturer attending to us, except Melody who's only the technician or something? After about an hour, Aisyah, Vani, Tini and I went for a self-proclaimed break. We sneaked out of the classroom and had to use the staircase to go down to the canteen to avoid being seen by Melody. Bought drinks and even walked around to the E-mart to buy snacks. I actually did feel a little wrong. Like we're supposed to be in class but we're out here walking slowly to get snacks. Hahah. And when we went back to the canteen, Vani saw Melody and we made a sharp U-turn and actually ran away to find somewhere to hide! Omg! I felt like we're in primary or secondary school running away from teachers. And after a while we slowly crept forward to see if the coast was clear, it was and we sneaked back into the classroom after checking that Melody wasn't in there. Tini said she wasn't so we went in and Tini went to ask another classmate, can't remember who, if Melody came in. And the classmate pointed to a woman in the class doing something with a machine and we were like OH! Hahah! So we practiced our injection skills, while eating french fries! Behind Melody's back la. Sneaky students, we are.

Then had NSS tutorial. And then we had 4 hours break. Suppose to be only 2 hours but since we had another NSL lesson and our lecturer wasn't there, we didn't attend la. It's ok, we didn't skip it. There really wasn't any class. So, while Aisyah and Vani went to the computer lab to do their NR, I followed Tini to the Atrium to post a letter. On the way, I saw Zam. I didn't think he saw me but then a few minutes later, he texted me and said he saw me. And we texted for a while. Nice. Then we went to NP Orchard and walk around. Tini bought yogurt ice cream and we went to sit at the Atrium. I love this 2 places in our school: The Atrium and NP Orchard. Cuz these are where we can see cute guys. Mostly here la. So we were thinking what to do for the 4 hour break and we decided to go out of school to Bukit Panjang Plaza. FUN! Aisyah met us and we went there. Even at the bus stop we were looking at cute guys. Walao! Walked around the mall, into shops, looking at accessories and shoes. Then me and Aisyah got hungry so we decided to eat at Sakura Restaurant. MARVELLOUS! We were all kinda broke so we ordered the cheapest dish there was and it was NICE! We took lotsa pictures while we were there. Then went to McDonald's to get ice creams.



Took bus 75 back to school. While we were on the bus, Tini and I got crazy. What happened was, there was another bus beside our bus and there was this cute guy around 14-16 years old, like kinda looking at us. He was like looked, then looked away, looked, then looked away, kind of thing. Tini was like playing around, acting crazy waving to don't know who really. But the guy wasn't looking. Then his bus went ahead of us. BUT THEN, our bus caught up with his bus and the guy was just chilling in his seat and looked at our bus and me and Tini waved madly at him! Like we know him or something. HAHAHA! His expression was funny, I think. He looked like he was struggling to keep from laughing. You might think he thinks Tini and I are crazy but I know he enjoyed it, getting waved at by two pretty girls. HAHAHAH! What fun! And we, including Aisyah ended up laughing.

Then something happened to me. I was drinking water from Tini's water bottle when the bus jerked forward. I didn't know the impact would be so great but it was and water spilled all over me. Hahah. I was laughed at by Tini and Aisyah of course. Then I took out a packet of tissue to wipe myself. And Tini did something, can't remember what but she made me drop my packet of tissue. So I had to bend down to pick it up. But something I did made her say "Eh! Geli la!" And started 'wriggling' about? Hahahah! And I we couldn't help it but laughed really really hard. It was so hard that there weren't any laughter sound coming out of our mouths. Our shoulders were just shaking like crazy from our hard laughter. I don't know how to explain. Just that sometimes when something's really funny you'll laugh without any sound coming out from your mouth for a long time until you have to take a breath, and THEN the sound will come out. Hahahaha!

Then we had a lecture. I slept for most of the first hour. Then me, Tini and Aisyah decided to 'cabut' the 2nd hour when the lecturer gives us a break. We quickly sneaked out of the back door. Then Tini saw Dr. Ronnie, one of our lecturers coming down the stairs near the lecture theatre. I was like "WHAT?!" I mean I really don't want Dr Ronnie to see us and think me a bad student. Of all lecturers, NOT Dr. Ronnie please. He's my favourite. Hahahah. So we were like "Oh no! Oh NO!" We made a U-turn and again, RAN away to some corner trying to hide away from Dr. Ronnie. I was like OMG! I can't believe I was doing this! In one day, we've ran away from two teachers! Super naughty la. All the way I was worrying whether he saw us, me. Then Tini said "I THINK la that was Dr. Ronnie. He looks like Dr. Ronnie." I was like, what the. I hope it wasn't Ronnie.

On my journey home, Shermine and I texted each other.

It was a good day.
In my own world,
7:45 PM

I love typing fast. Don't you? I like the sound. Haha. Whatever.

Anyway, have I told you how stressful school's been? Well, it is. There're quizzes and their dates are all blurred together, I just hope I won't study for the wrong test. Then there're assignments. Confusion please! They are so inorganized and the modules are so heavy. There're so many notes to buy too. And I'm like with an almost empty wallet. I might need to beg. Gross. I COULD print the notes from my school website but I wonder if it's more expensive?

Did Nursing Research quiz today. It was alright I guess. But it's getting more difficult, the topics. I don't think I'll do any real research in my whole life. Statistics. It's a whole new language to me. Not whole. But ya.. whatever.

He's away. Come back ALREADY!

Ooh! And I'm currently liking this song by Cascada called Everytime We Touch. Listen to the Radio Mix one. It's very nice. Oh and Temperature by Sean Paul. Your body will then have a mind of its own and start moving.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so.
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
In my own world,
11:36 PM

I can't believe what my itchy fingers just did! I went to download the newest version of MSN Messenger and now it's all in Chinese! I know nuts about the language. Neither do my computer cuz instead of chinese characters, in place of them are these small square boxes. I wish I could turn back time and tie my fingers so I wouldn't make this stupid thing. So anyway, if anybody knows how I can change the language, oh DO DO DO tell me.

School's starting to get stressful. This suck.

Today, I took the train with Lia since she's going my way to meet her guy. So instead of meeting her guy in the train, we had to alight at City Hall to meet him instead since he was late. So when he finally came I was like the awkward third wheel. I was like "Ok.. where do I stand, where do I look, what do I say.. Where's my script!" kind of thing. But they went off after 3 stops, so my awkward feeling didn't last long.

God! Do I hate feeling awkward. Most of the time when I feel that way, I wish I could just disappear into thin air.. or maybe just have a distraction.
In my own world,
8:38 PM

This, may I introduce to you, is Stephen Gately, former member of Boyzone. He was my first love. Aww.. Does he look gay? He's so adorable-looking. Like some small boy or something. Very cute. The way he smiles when he's singing! So CUTE! He's gay! But what do I care. And below is the first Boyzone video I saw when I was in Primary School(was it 9,10 or 11 years old?). I remembered after watching the video, I went out shopping and all the while his face was on my mind. I was in love. Infatuated's more like it. Anyway, after so long of not listening to Boyzone's music, I can't believe I can still remember the lyrics. Watch the 2nd video too! It features Mr. Bean. It's funny. And Stephen is as cute as ever too!

Boyzone - No Matter What


Boyzone - Picture of You


Boyzone - I Love The Way You Love Me

In my own world,
12:22 AM

Why do brands make all the impression? Why do people buy popular branded goods when other brands which are less costly, look and feel the same as the popular branded ones? I wonder why some people feel more confident and joy owning a branded good than when they own the identical thing that's not branded.

Whatever.

Yesterday, I bought new clothes that are worth $101. Pure bliss. Retail therapy. Makes a girl's day. At least it does to mine.

Anybody watched American Idol this week? How could Chris be out?! He was usually the top one. And now he's bottom? What happened to his voters? Unbelievable. It's so damn sad. He shouldn't be out!

Your Style is 1950s

High heels, pretty dresses, classic makeup... You're a feminine beauty who knows how to play up her assets!

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit. You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe. For you style is looking like a million bucks... And you always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe.

In my own world,
2:04 PM

Omg. I'm watching Super Nanny on Arts Central. The kids are.. little devils. The way they misbehave and being disobedient and rude and aggressive.. it's really shocking. I hope my kids aren't like that. I could analyze what I'm saying and thinking like how Haiqal does, but I'm too lazy to think right now.

This week of school has been alright I guess. Nothing much interesting happened. Only yesterday, I embarrassed myself in front of strangers running into a f**king POLE! When will I stop making a fool of myself? I've no self-control, I swear! Everything I do that leads to me embarrassing myself are usually involuntary. Out of no where, I'd do something and after that I'd be like "Omg. What did I just do/say??"

INTERUPTION
The kids in Super Nanny are really super extreme. I can't believe how naughty they can get. They hit the parents and calling them bad names. Screaming and throwing tantrums, even made the mom bleed. I'm struck dumb!

Last night, I had to do another group presentation. I'm exhausted. Only to find out, we didn't have to present it at all. I could have done my homework or studied for my test. Instead I spent the whole night, doing powerpoint slides. Which wasn't even presented. Sometimes I wish I could ask somebody else to do all that, but I want everything right and perfect and presentable. I don't want any late nights anymore!

Right.

Today, went to the Pasar Malam at Clementi after class at 2pm with Tini and bought nice food. I love food. Doesn't everybody? And we saw cute guys too.. It's really unavoidable. Went home in the train and Tini and I saw something and we couldn't stop laughing. Even after she alighted, I had to struggle to keep myself from laughing outloud in the train by myself.

Anyway, Mothers' Day's this Sunday. We bought her a Guess watch. Going out tomorrow to go shopping. Yay-ness.

I want to TRAVEL! I want to go to England and Scotland and Ireland (they're called UK altogether, right?) to see castles! I want to go see the medievel castles. It's absolutely gorgeous.

I'm just gonna go.
In my own world,
10:10 PM

Let's see.

2 tests.
2 presentations.
2 homework.

Homework can't be counted but it just means that there're homework for 2 modules.

Yesterday, my family, my grandmother, my aunts, uncles and cousins went for dinner at Han River at Eastpoint. It's this place where they put out a buffet of raw food, and we have to cook them ourselves, on our tables. It was fun. The food was alright. I did worry that I might be eating partially cooked food. But so far, I don't have any side effects from it. No diarrhoea or vomitting or whatever. So it's good.

And I rented books too!

Got a bumpy ride home in the back of my uncle's van. It was fun actually. And REALLY loud! My 5-year-old sister and cousin were practically drowning the sound of the motor.


This is them.

Today, I tried to do Nursing Research assignment. Tedious. I need to buy a calculator.

I'm broke. I might have to pack lunch from home from now on.

I want an iPod nano! It's absolutely gorgeous. I'm not sure what to buy first. iPod nano, a slim and excellent quality digicam, a new handphone with great features or a notebook computer (some call it laptops). They are all super expensive. I think I should buy a slim and excellent quality digicam first, don't you think?

I already have an MP3 player which I seldom use and besides, I don't have any legal downloading mp3 program so it might be more expensive to buy a new mp3 player and then having to but CDs which altogether might cost a ton.

I already have a phone which is still in an 'okay' condition. And I can wait for 1 more year until my subscription plan ends and then can change to a new phone.

I don't have a notebook computer. But I don't really need it urgently right now. Maybe I'll wait until I'm going overseas for further studies to buy a notebook computer. It'll definitely come in handy.

So digicam it is. And my parents have given the OK signal. So I just have to wait until I've money or I could get one for my birthday.

Another random thing! I LOVE beer commercials. They're really cute and funny and cool sometimes.

Oh! I came across this website which was pretty creepy. Check it out here! It scared me a little.
In my own world,
9:44 PM

I am absolutely tired. I'm exhausted, beat, pooped, drained, worn out. How many more synonyms of 'tired' should I write to explain to you how fatigued I am? And I'm so sleepy, I think I can even fall asleep sitting on the toilet.

The reason of my tiredness and sleepiness is because of late nights (as late as 1am) and early mornings (as early as 5am). The cause of these are group projects and presentations. Basically, I'm the one decorating the powerpoint slides and combining the slides and editting them and making sure every slides are presentable. Actually, I don't mind doing all this. Especially for those group members who've contributed to the project. But those who hardly researched on anything, let me strangle them please. I was so pissed at one of my group members.... that I didn't do anything. I couldn't scold her now can I? What to do?? I don't know how to talk to her. She'll give excuses anyway. Doesn't she realize she's not doing anything?? Doesn't she realize it's a group work? Doesn't she realize that her group members are pissed at her? Doesn't she have any sympathy or sense of team work? She doesn't even get her own f***ing notes. God!

We've started learning about injections in NSL. SO COOL!! I got to attach the needle to the syringe. I got to break an ampoule!! SO INTERESETING! And I got to withdraw the drug into the syringe. Like the real thing! Only I need more practice.

Anyway, I've decided to join a CCA in school. I'm joining Red Cross. It's so exciting!

I have to get to bed right now. I can't open my eyes anymore. I think if I were to just blink my eyes once, I'd be in slumberland.
In my own world,
9:57 PM

I hate washing the dishes. Just looking at them all piled up in the sink is disgusting and tiring. I hate it when they don't wash their own dirty plates. It's my duty to wash the dishes but come on! Wash what you use. It's not much. And if they pile them up, all 5 other members of my family, waiting for me to wash them, imagine how many dishes there are! God! Maybe we should eat off paper plates or something. Or just eat out off the newspaper. Ya, and by dinner time, we'll be too sick to even eat. Less or no dishes to wash. And my dad went like, when you get married and have a family, you can do that, whatever you want. What-ever. It's not like I'll have a huge family as this anyway. So it wouldn't be that much a chore washing the dishes. Maybe I might hire a domestic helper in the future. But that's only if I'm rich and successful or if I marry a rich man.

Frequent readers of my blog, you should know I've big dreams and wishes and expectations; excellent grades, great career, travelling all over the world, man of my dreams, huge house, beautiful kids. Expectations, expectations. But you know what? I'm not gonna expect anything anymore. Or at least not too much. Cuz in the end, if I don't meet my expectations, I think I'd be living in permanent sadness and unsatisfaction.

But just one, just this one wish, I wish someone would grant it. Sigh..

Updated at 12:12 AM

It's broken. All over again. I need super super super glue to put it back together. Dammit! Get over it, Nad! Just get. Over. It. Clear your mind. Go and learn meditation or yoga la!!

Argh!
In my own world,
8:37 PM

Tini realized that I like to exaggerate. A lot.

I somehow find the HS scedule for the Year 2 is unorganized. Especially for Nursing Science. It's absolutely CONFUSING. There's Nursing Sciences 1.1 and 1.2 but there's 2 manuals for 1.2 and they start both at the same time. Then there's a topic on Immunology. It's everywhere! In pieces of paper and in the manual. I've no idea which one I'm supposed to refer to. And there's a quiz coming on! I think there're 3 lecturers teaching us Nursing Sciences 1.2. And none are using the same notes. It's bloody frustrating. And for Meera's lectures, why can't she announce to us there are notes to buy? What, we're supposed to check in the shop every day, just to see if there are notes to buy? Why can't she make all the notes for the whole semester into one manual instead of us having to buy seperate pieces of notes again and again. Super unorganized la! And the tutorial for Nursing Science, about the case study thing, OMG! Especially with June Mak for our tutor, let me fail please. I've no idea what she's talking about! Most of the time it's hardly anything to do with anything in our manuals. We can't even relate to it. And she doesn't exactly explain what we're supposed to do for our presentation for the case study. Now I feel SO lost at what to do, that I think I'm better off in a jungle.

And just a few minutes ago, I snapped at my sisters. I was a little shocked at how quickly my anger rose, like an empty closed bottle in the water. And suddenly I was snapping at them. Touchy.

Omg! There she goes again! I could just slap on masking tape on her big mouth. Right now, I wish she could just walk around with a paper bag over her head. It could save her. From me.

Bloody hell. She bloody pisses me off so much. If I were to be hypertensive, it HAS to be because of her. She's such a bloody snitch as well. Argh!!
In my own world,
2:30 PM