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You're Very Special To Me


Yesterday night was a bad night. This morning was a bad morning. As a result, I couldn't stand it, I cried during a lecture.


I'm not going to say what happened this morning cuz i'm disgusted and embarrassed by it. I loathe just thinking about it. Yuck! Told my friends about it. And I got scared a little and depressed and began to cry. I don't know what's wrong with me today. During a break, I started crying again. It's disgusting, I tell you!


But I love my friends who were there for me today. Tini, Nisa and Lya for comforting me, assuring me, cheering and making me laugh so much and encouraging me and feeling happy for me when something good happened to me. You guys have no idea how much I appreciate it. And Dana! So motherly to me. Jannah also, for standing up for me. And Muhaimin also, even though he only just smiled and talked a little to me. Made my day, really! See what a smile can do? Hahah. And Jaclyn! Hahah she invited me out tomorrow. And of course and definitely, Sharifah! For listening to all my problems and doing something so special for my birthday. And then Jason from IJC chat with me! So long never talk. He's making me laugh so hard, I can't stand it sia. So cute! What, with 7 strands of hair. Hahah! Argh! You guys, thanks a lot!


Ok ok, stop with the sappy stuff. Thank God for these people.


I hate cigarrette smoke.


Cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas thought slpeling was ipmorantt! tahts so cool!!!
In my own world,
10:14 PM

So it's over.


Ouch. Times a thousand..


It actually hurt. Really bad. Oh my God.


I kinda expected this to happen sooner or later. I know he's the one who's going to hurt me. Cuz I've sworn to him I won't hurt him. I never go back on my word. I know I will get hurt because of this but still.. ouch.


So i've shed a few tears. It's expected. But i'll move on. I have to. And I have to forgive him. But forget? I don't know.


I still can't believe it hurt this bad. I hate it!


There were two boxes of tissue on my computer table before I used the computer. I didn't know it was like a sign.


Sharifah's the only one I can talk to cuz she'll understand. Hey Sheri, here's a hint: Oscar.


Update
Now it's 10.15pm. I'm alright already! Hahah. There were stuff that reminds me of.. you know. Especially this ad on tv that shows a movie called PS I Love You. I was like What the. I'm watching Man Hunt now. One word. Wow!
In my own world,
8:30 PM

I Got A Crush On You


I feel nauseous. Very nauseous.


Supposed to have only MIC practical today. But there's a make up lesson for NSL. So, we finished school an hour later.


I've checked where I'd be attached for my clinical attachment. One's at Pasir Ris polyclinic(thank God), another's at Clementi and the other one is at Woodlands. Do you think I'm meant to live in the West or central or somewhere not East? Everywhere is so far from where I live. Maybe I was meant to wake up at 5am everyday. Or maybe I was meant to look like a panda with huge dark eye bags. My fate is really "funny" sometimes. *shakes head*


After school has ended, I had to go to KK Women's and Children's Hospital. There's no connection with me being nauseous and this particular hospital, mind you. Anyway, I was there because of the signing of bonds. That hospital will be my 2nd home in 3 years time. I can't wait to work with kids. Before the meeting, I went to Delifrance. Ate a mixed fruit tart which was good and drank iced mocha. The first few sips was super bitter. My face were scrunched up like a prune. But after a while, I got used to it. I hope I can sleep at night, what with the caffeine in my bloodstream. Maybe I really AM meant to look like a panda.


My cousins are SOOO cute! A girl and a boy, 3 and 4 years old respectively. They're super cute!! What they did. But it's hard to explain and tell a story with words.


I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel.
-Scars, Papa Roach.
In my own world,
6:58 PM

Wake me up inside


Highlight of my day today is: Min acknowledged me. With a super cute smile. Finally.


Went shopping yesterday. Bought 3 dresses, 2 pants and 2 shirts. Nice. And I ate cheese fries.


Common test next week. I've done my notes on Psychology and some chapters for Anatomy. Nothing for Microbiology and nothing for Fundamentals of Nursing. In advance, I shall congratulate myself for failing the latter two subjects. So i'm pretty lame sometimes.


I've been elected to be the leader for a group project for Communication in Nursing. How did I get myself into that?! I was obviously sabotaged by my darling, most dearest friends. But seriously, I'm honoured. Hahah!


I really hate the feeling of jealousy. It's a killer emotion. Very dangerous.


But I do love the song "We Belong Together" by Mariah Carey.
In my own world,
8:50 PM

My Personality

You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart. Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people. You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile. You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker. You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side. Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches.

In my own world,
5:05 PM

I love today!!


I feel so good,
Ahh!
Oh I feel so good,
Ahh!
Oh I feel so, oh I feel so, oh I feel so good!
Ahh, ahh, ahhh!


Hahah! That was a cheer we did during the camps. And oh, do I feel so good today!


1. Woke up to 2 text messages today. James wanted a hug and Muhaimin, my newest friend(introduced by Vani), asked if I have MSN. Yay! My day started so well. I didn't reply both cuz (1)my bill has gone over the top, so I try not to sms global so much and (2)I wanted to talk to Muhaimin face to face. Which didn't happen, by the way. We were too busy.


2. Anatomy practical was superb! Except for the part when I dropped the front part of the muscle man in front of another class. Anyway, why it was superb because (1)Dr. Ronnie Lim a.k.a Uncle Ronnie was SOOO cute today! He tried on a pair of shades which he just bought and he looked sooo cute. For a married 30-40 year old man, with greying hair, he's a very attractive, good-looking, charming and funny man. Everyone loves him. NYP has lost one of the best lecturer/tutor. Their loss, our gain! (2)I was able to understand whatever he taught about the structures and functions of the heart! Yay-ness! (3)When he asked which part of the brain that sends signals to the heart, I was the one who gave the answer, medulla oblongata! and he was like, Very good! Hahah! I'm super proud of myself. But after I answered, I felt my face getting hot and my heart drumming so fast, I thought I was going to faint, cuz the rest of the class went wah.. I'm not used to the attention. Maybe I never will.


3. Anatomy lecture with Uncle Ronnie! It was sooo fun and sooo not boring. Uncle Ronnie was sooo funny, the whole theatre were laughing. Me and Tini kept exclaiming how cute he was. Hahah! Plus I was told I was cute too. Hahah!


4. Remember I said I was going to talk to Muhaimin face to face? Well, after Anatomy lecture was over, I couldn't see him and plus I got nervous cuz he'll probably with other people and I don't want to be stared at while I'm talking to Muhaimin. I got nervous so I left with my friends. But I messaged him instead and gave him my e-mail add.


5. I was in the train when I received a call from Jaclyn!!! We talked and she told me how she woke early in the morning to get to the Mango sale. Hahah! I was laughing so hard. She's so funny and cool, man. And she thought of me when she bought a dress and so she called me and asked if I want the dress. Actual price was $90, she bought it for $49 and she's giving it to me for $30. How could I refuse?! The kind of dress I've been looking for and from Mango! I was still smiling after we've ended the conversation. I'm so glad to hear from her after so long.


6. Not 5 minutes after i've put the phone down, I received a message from Muhaimin! We were texting back and forth and one of his message, I actually laughed out loud and was grinning so wide, people might have looked. But I didn't care. Hahah! He's in band too. Plays the eupho too. And knows Nabil too! I was like, whoa!! I had a bounce in my walk while walking home. Hahah.


7. Not 10 minutes after we've ended our texting back and forth, I recieved a message from James! Our conversation was fun too! Couldn't stop smiling.


Today is sooo good!! I just can't believe it. Something bad's coming. I'm sure of it. Nothing this much goodness comes without a price. I'll just have to wait and see what that badness would be.
In my own world,
7:47 PM

I need sleep, badly.


School's been fine. I'm lacking of sleep though. But I'm fine. I will survive. Or not. Took a nap after I got home from school today. I slept with my contact lenses on. I didn't really panicked that badly until after I tried to take it out, but it didn't come off. I was like, "Is it stuck in my eye?!" But it's ok now. Man, I'm super tired.


I saw a red convertible on campus today. It was hot. But noisy.


I learned about perineal and continence care for the clients in nursing skills. The definition is the cleaning of the genital area and how to help them put on diapers and stuff for those with weak bladder control. Are your eyes popping out now? It was fine doing the routine on the dummies but how the hell do I do it on real-life patients without laughing or getting embarrassed for them? What the hell am I supposed to do when, while cleaning the male area and the thing pops up, on attention? Salute it? I know what I'm going to do. I'm going to pretend nothing happened and casually cover the part with a towel and wait until it goes down. I just hope in the meantime while waiting, I won't burst out laughing or blood vessels bursting in my face from too much blushing. What have I gotten myself into?!


"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5


"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7


"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8


Don't you just love kids?
In my own world,
9:54 PM

Revision





OH MY GOSH! I just heard! Good Charlottes coming to Singapore on the 12th of July! I wanna go to their concert. The tickets $71. Oh man. It's super expensive la. It's a weekday at 8pm. But hey, it's my one week break from school (and 2 days before my next Hep B jab). It'll be so cool if I could go.
In my own world,
9:40 PM

Slap, Slap!


My bladder has expanded a few inches since a couple of hours ago. Here's what happened..


School finished at 4pm. I got home around 5.30pm. But I had to stay at the void deck until my sister comes home cuz I don't have the house key. I specifically told her to text me when she gets home. I waited until 6pm before I text her, asking where she was. She told me she'd just gotten out of school. So I presumed she was on the way home already. Remember, I told her to text me when she gets home. 6pm became 6.20pm, then it became 6.40pm. I was already so mad, and what with my bladder on the brink of exploding. She has still not messaged me. I called her 5 times and texted her in between. She didn't answer any calls except for the last text message at 7.30pm. And guess what it said (I'm getting heated up already), in a not so perfect English:


I reach home long time ago.. Why you never come back straight.


By then, I could have slapped anyone's face, preferably hers. I was like there, at the void deck, waiting for TWO hours, hot and bothered, with mosquitoes kissing my feet and jiggling and rocking back and forth trying to hold my straining-to-the-seams bladder, she was already at home, which later I found out, after rushing to the lift, after pacing back and forth in the little space that I've got in the lift, after trying not to think about toilets or water and after I threw my shoes off and burst into the house, that she was watching TV.


Stupid idiot.


Anyway, I just added a new thing to my wishlist. A bottle of Lacoste Touch of Pink perfume by Lacoste for Women. It smells awesome. I've good taste. It's $102 for 1.6oz bottle.



In my own world,
7:52 PM

I Like to Move It, Move it!


I bought a new bag from Ice Lemon Tee! FINALLY right. I think it's quite nice. Trying to get use to it. It's only $15.


And FINALLY, I caught the movie Madagascar. Been wanting to watch it since it started showing on TV. I had to persuade Mumtaz dear to watch it with me. I was persuading her like crazy! She doesn't like watching this kind of animated movies. But I kept persuading her, telling her she'll like the movie, that she'll laugh and find the movie SO cute. But she wouldn't budge until I told her that if she doesn't like it after we watch it, I'll pay for her movie ticket. It worked! And guess what? I didn't have to pay a single cent. She liked the movie. She laughed and found it SO cute. Which is true. It's really, really cute. I love Melman, the giraffe. Especially the part when Alex, the lion was trying to get him out of the box. I was laughing like crazy.


I FINALLY went to the polyclinic to take my Hepatitis B jab. Thank the heavens I got a good, friendly and nice nurse. While waiting for my turn, my heart was beating like the drums in Greenday's songs. Fast. But then it was ok. The poking and taking the needle out stung a little. But while the liquid was entering, I didn't feel a thing. I was squeezing my eyes shut and kept wondering when it's going to be over. Anyway, one jab done, 2 more to go. Wow. My immune system is going to be so good. Man, the injection still stings a little.


Ok, all these happened after school. We had only lab sessions today. It's pretty interesting. We studied the agar plate that we purposely contaminated the week before. We had used coins, a strand of hair, washed and unwashed hands, the air in and outside of the lab and the storeroom, breath, etc, etc. There was one done by a classmate of mine, she had had to press her lips against the agar. So today we got to see the results. It was disgusting! There were microorganisms growing on the contaminated agar. It looked like warts and pores and super disgusting stuff. I had goosepimples seeing and thinking about it. Yuck, I tell you.


I realized I've been writing this entry in a not chronological manner. Meaning, the 4th paragraph happened first. Followed by the 3rd paragraph, then 2nd and finally the 1st.


See ya later, alligator. Rubbish..
In my own world,
7:22 PM

Smoking Kills


So I've changed my layout yet again. Sue me.


My computer has just came back from servicing. So did my phone. With all the pictures and messages gone. Awesome.


Last Thursday, someone died in my school. He was a 40-50 year old man. He was from outside taking an engineering course. At 9 something, he was having a class, i think, when he collapsed. He vomitted and his nose bled. Someone called my lecturer/tutor, Dr. Lim (we call him Uncle Ronnie), to come check on him. When Dr. Lim arrived at the scene, the man was already on the ground on his side, which was good. He touched the man's face and found that it was cold and clammy. His radial pulse and the pulse at his neck were tremendously weak. Dr. Lim said it was because of very low blood pressure. The man was unconscious for 20 mins. Then he started snoring. When he came to, his skin has returned colour, pinkish, and his pulse returned to normal. He seemed well. But the ambulance came so Dr. Lim decided to send him to the hospital instead of originally planning to call his wife to pick him up. Then around noon, the hospital called my school and informed us that the man had passed away. He died of hypertension and high blood pressure. Plus he was a chain smoker. *Gasped!* Yea that was the reaction given by all of us when we were told about it.


Those who smokes, please stop smoking. PLEASE! You're not only harming yourself but also others. 2nd hand smokers (those who breathe in cigarettes smoke) has a higher risk of dying than those who actually smoke the damned cigarettes. And besides, the stuff smells horrible! I almost choked when I was engulfed in cigarette smoke the other day at the bus stop. Geez!


Today, I went out and bought 2 dresses. Thinking of buying another one, which costs $30, soon.
In my own world,
8:53 PM

Sleep NOW!


I should sleep now. I have school tomorrow. Therefore, I have to wake up 3 hours before school starts. Degil nye..


Went to the bank to apply for an ATM card. Will get it after about 4 working days.


I was supposed to have my Hep B jab today but complications came up, so I didn't get my jab today. Troublesome. Not that I'm looking forward to it, I'm looking forward to getting it done and over with.


Went home to change. Met Azfar at inter, took 15 to Parkway Parade, waited for Hilmi and we played pool. I won a few times. But the most satisfaction I got was when I beat Azfar. And that was, once? Hahah. I know i've improved. It was fun and funny. Sometimes they'd hit the white ball so hard until it jumps over the table. Sometimes they'd accidentally hit the white ball and it didn't hit any other ball so I got a free ball. Sometimes they hit the balls and the black ball goes into the pocket. And hey, I won! Hahah.


Went home after a few games. Azfar slept in the bus. I mean really slept. He was rocking back and forth, and side to side. Hahah. Cute.


Well, Azfar didn't grow any taller. Or maybe we both grew taller, so can't see any difference.


Got home, refresh myself a while and went out again to TM to ask about my phone. It's not with me now. Hope they can fix it. And I just lost my train of thoughts. I'm getting frustrated nowadays. Anyway, yea, I hope they can fix my phone. Oh man, all my stuff would be gone. All my beautiful pictures and messages! The thought of it kills me.


I should go to sleep NOW! I'm going to dread waking up the next morning. And I'm not looking forward to NSL anymore. It's getting so boring.


ARGH!


Anyway, one good thing about today is, I played pool with two of my friends from MI. Awesome.


PS I Love You.
In my own world,
11:06 PM

Zoombinis

Don't have much to blog about since almost everything's about school.

School's been ok. The only enjoyable classes are Psychology & Sociology (Dr. Thomas Sim is the best. He's so funny) and Anatomy & Physiology (Dr. Ronnie Lim is quite funny too). They're fun people. During PAS lecture or tutorial, we'll never be bored. For the topic on memory, it was really nice. We had different kinds of memory games. Fun! Hahah. Then for AAP, lectures are ok but practicals are interesting. One of the practical lessons, one of us had to sacrifice our finger to be pricked. It was Jeanette. Yea and we studied the blood cells under the microscope. Really interesting.

Microbiology & Infection Control should be interesting. Well, the practicals are but the lecture, I've not a clue what the lecturer said. Ok, I do know but it's difficult to remember them what with all those names of microorganisms. They're in Latin/Greek for God's sake.

Nursing Skills Laboratory used to be fun. But i'm getting tired of the lecturer's long and dull speeches.

Communication in Nursing Practical is quite nice too. Right now we're learning about Body Language. Really interesting.

I've got the Bursary! Yay-ness! So for the next 3 years after Poly, I'll be working in KK Women & Children Hospital. Speaking of hospitals, I have to go to a clinic to get my Hep B vaccination. Ergh..

Anyway, yesterday, I went to the beach with my relatives. My cousins came so it was fun. The beach was surprisingly NOT crowded. That's how I like it. More beach area to ourselves and much more privacy. It was really nice.

Updated at 9.35pm

What the F*CK! My phone's gone crazy! I hate this so much. I'm not going to survive without my phone. Can feel myself dying slowly. I exaggerate too much. I have no mood to laugh. I'm so angry! I'm dreading going to school without my phone. Argh!!! What the hell's wrong with my phone?!
In my own world,
7:50 PM